What the hell am I doing? First EMA
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| Mon, 10-13-2003 - 9:04pm |
This all happened on a Friday afternoon. I was a mess all weekend. I couldn't stop thinking about him. Then, when I saw him again on Tuesday, we had sex. We've had sex 3 or 4 times since that. He is single and goes out with his guy friends alot. I have no idea who else he is sleeping with. Of course, we always use protection, but it's still a risk.
My husband has no idea about this. Our sex life is still the same (about 1 time/week) and it's always good. I never imagined I would ever even consider cheating, but now that I have, I am enjoying it. There are no emotions involved with this guy, but I think about having sex with him all the time. Can anyone relate? Am I losing my mind? I ask myself everyday, WHY AM I DOING THIS? But, so far, I can't come up with an answer. I just needed to get it off of my chest. Any feedback will be great!

Hi drmel and welcome to the board,
I think a lot of us can relate to what you are feeling... for most... but not everyone... a lot of EMA's start out physically... I know for me, although we started as online friends... it didn't take long to get physical... and I couldn't get enough of MM... and after 3 and a half years... I still can't! *s*
I think though... that now is the time to sit down and ask yourself a few questions... specially... is OM worth it??? is the sex worth risking what you may lose... ie your marriage.
Sweet
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