In A Dilemma

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Registered: 09-09-2003
In A Dilemma
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Tue, 11-25-2003 - 9:07am
I just don't know what I should do right now. Have been seeing MM for just over 2 years. Usually I am very excited when we have the chance to get together. He wants to today, I'm waiting to hear from him. But for some reason, I'm just not into it. We did have a 8-1/2 week NC a while ago, that kind of hardened my heart against him. I don't think I have the same feelings anymore, like trust. Maybe I am starting to get over him?

Anyways, I am probably going to blow him off today, which I've never done before, is that weird or what? I'm just really having 2nd thoughts lately. Anyone else going through this kind of thing?

xxxx
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Registered: 11-17-2003
In reply to: dustyrose2
Tue, 11-25-2003 - 9:16am
I'm sure everyone has! There's no harm in not making yourself available to him at all times, am I right?!
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In reply to: dustyrose2
Tue, 11-25-2003 - 9:23am
I've just been feeling this way lately. Because when he doesn't want to see me, I don't hear from him for days. Then I'm supposed to be available at the drop of a hat when he's ready to see me? And then I may not hear from him again for several more days. I don't really care for that. Sometimes I just feel used lately. And its not a feeling I like. It was mainly a physical relationship, but maybe I'm just not into that anymore. I have a H, things are still not great there. I have a really great time with MM when we're together, but I don't know if its the right thing for me anymore.
xxxx
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Registered: 11-17-2003
In reply to: dustyrose2
Tue, 11-25-2003 - 9:42am
Hey, I can see that must be a tough feeling to deal with. If it's purely a physical thing, you and he can both get that elsewhere, am I right? And under no circumstances should you get physical with someone when you don't feel like it-- especially someone to whom you owe nothing, and from whom you're not receiving the attention you deserve.

If you feel like picking it up later, you can contact him then. Give him a little taste of his own medicine!

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Registered: 09-09-2003
In reply to: dustyrose2
Tue, 11-25-2003 - 9:46am
You're right. We were trying to rush in a rendezvouz before Thanksgiving, but maybe I don't want to be rushed. However, I may feel different next week. Anyways, I haven't heard from him today yet anyways, maybe it wasn't going to work into his schedule. We've never really had an argument, but he knows when I'm a little Pi**ed off at him. Which I am right now.
xxxx
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Registered: 11-17-2003
In reply to: dustyrose2
Tue, 11-25-2003 - 9:54am
"Anyways, I haven't heard from him today yet anyways, maybe it wasn't going to work into his schedule." Shoot, what about your schedule? If it isn't gonna work for you, why even consider his schedule? Sorry-- my goal today is to not worry about pleasing everyone but myself. Hope you'll join me!

Well, I assume y'all are friends. :-) Friends get p.o.'d at each other sometimes, doesn't mean you don't speak ever again.

Maybe you'll feel differently after the holiday, maybe not. Both feelings are perfectly valid, and you don't have to justify either way to him.

Anyway, Dustyrose2, I hope you have a relaxing and happy Thanksgiving.