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He's a better guy for me
| Mon, 12-01-2003 - 3:40am |
Ok so I am cheating on my boyfriend...there I said it! I feel horrible. I am tired of lying aboout where I am and who I am with and I am tired of lying to my new guy! A little history... I am 21 years old and have been with Chris for 3 1/2 years. Chris is 11 years my senior, has an ex-wife and a 5 year old daughter. I have tried to get out of this relationship a few times and always get sucked back in. I can never make it FINAL! For some reason I catch myself running back to him. But I still wanted more, so I joined a dating service on line and met someone. A guy who is more my age- 2 1/2 years older than I. He and I have quite a bit in common and enjoy seeing eachother every chance we get. He does not know about Chris. So I am pretty much lying to both of them. Oh I am in such a pickle! I want out of my relationship with Chris, but just can't seem to really leave him, the last thing I want to do is hurt him, he would be devastated if he knew. I also really like my new guy who I am sure would be just as devastated. Never been in this kinda situation before. I am sure you hear that a lot, but really I never cheated before, I feel so LOW!
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| Mon, 12-01-2003 - 8:00am |
If you really want out of your relationship with Chris, then the only thing to do is end it. The longer you delay and put off leaving him, the harder it is going to get. You need to be honest with him and just tell him that you have met someone else that you think you are compatable with and want to see where it goes. You are young...you have plenty of time to figure out what it is you want in your life without being in a pickle like this. I am only 25, but trust me the past few years have taught me so much about myself and if I had to go back and do it all again, there are many things I would do differently. But alas, this is the life we have chosen and everything does happen for a readon. If you really want to try to start something special with the new guy, you have to end it with Chris. I know it is hard to let go of someone, but it may be the best thing for you. Just thought I'd try and help. Good luck!! *hugs*
