Going insane...

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Registered: 03-26-2003
Going insane...
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Tue, 12-02-2003 - 1:37pm
waiting for that phone to ring. Been expecting MM's call for a couple of weeks now and its time he called!! I don't know I don't feel like myself anymore, I am zombie who goes around doing things - shopping, putting up decorations with the kids and spending time with family. I am not into any of it. My best friends is having a wedding next month and I am so involved in her preparations. Everytime we go shopping, I am nodding my head and then going off into my own daze. My friend caught me couple of times going off on my own like that. I know, I am bad. I cannot concentrate at work and the boss lady has noticed it too. I miss my MM want to see the man and right now!!! sigh....

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Registered: 10-06-2003
Tue, 12-02-2003 - 2:57pm
Learning,

I'm sorry for the way your feeling right now. I was that way last year at this time, I didnt even put my Christman tree up till 3 days before Christmas, It was not fair to my kids, my family or my job, but no matter what I did I couldnt shake it. MM and I were not in NC, but I guess I was still in that Honey Moon Stage, No matter what I tryed to do, I wanted to be doing it with him. I find myself day dreaming about him so much.

I know its hard to wait on the phone to ring, but try to occupy yourself with other things, and really enjoy the time with your kids. They deserve all of you.

{{{Good vibes}}}

dayz
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Registered: 03-26-2003
Tue, 12-02-2003 - 3:23pm
ahhh, the honeymoon stage!! That does bring back a lot of warm memories. sigh.... Anyway, thanks for the hugs. Its the season isn't it? Plus the wedding isn't helping any!! Atleast I don't have to deal with a friend like Trista who wants a *pink* (trying to say that in that nasal tone of Trista's) wedding!! LOL
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Registered: 10-06-2003
Tue, 12-02-2003 - 3:58pm
And all those things seem so petty to you right now. Try to hold back on choking her with the flowers (hee hee).

Hang in there, the holidays are going to be wonderful this year, I feel that I get better and better at it each year. MM and I have grown so much this year, we are so comfortable.

He is just so amazing.

Maybe your MM will call, are you ready to talk to him? Do you have so much to tell him.

My MM hates to go too long with out talking to me, he says I burn up his ears with so much information.

Anyway, hang in there,

dayz
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Registered: 03-26-2003
Tue, 12-02-2003 - 4:18pm
hee hee. I too thought all the flowers and the table setting & napkins matching seemed so small compared to what she (Trista) had found in Ryan. If I were her I would do a simple wedding with few fusses, but then I have been married before. Also, I bet ABC wants to make much of all this as much as possible.

Am I ready to talk to MM? Yeah baby, I am ready to talk him!! *grin* I hope he doesn't catch me off guard or something. LOL I do a lot to tell him from the last time we spoke a few month ago. LOL about you burning his ears with too much information.

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Registered: 08-11-2003
Tue, 12-02-2003 - 6:33pm
I cab relate about being in zombie land.I'm in the same boat doing the family thing but not being into it.It sucks.I'm trying to end my a so I can get my life back to normal but I just can't seem to do that.Good luck and hope you get your call soon.Do you get to see him often or what?