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| Thu, 12-04-2003 - 9:51pm |
If it were a normal day. I wouldn't care what went on in his household.
If it were a normal day I could care less if the easter bunny was there, but the thing is it's not a normal day. It's the holidays.
And if it were a NORMAL DAY, I wouldn't be involved with him, but the fact is I am.
If it were a normal day I could care less if the easter bunny was there, but the thing is it's not a normal day. It's the holidays.
And if it were a NORMAL DAY, I wouldn't be involved with him, but the fact is I am.
I just need to vent, :).
That's all.

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gurl
Anyway, I found out that "their" (W & kids) having a christmas party. So a lightbulb went off in my head and I thought,"OHHHH, THAT'S WHY HE'S STRESSING!"
And I'm just upset at myself because I cried and was worried about him then to find out, not by him, that this christmas party is coming up.
How STRESSED OUT can he be then. I'm annoyed because he's telling me he's having a hard time, but it has nothing to do with us. Then turn around and host a party.
I want to believe him when he says it has nothing (his stressing) to do with "our relationship."
And I'm upset and annoyed that he's letting "US" get the brunt of it all.
A/EMAs are supposed to be playtime and fun. everyday life intrudes every single day, i every single situation/relationship. so you must find ways to keep busy and not obsess on MM's homelife. you're stressing him out even more by being so upset and demanding. you're supposed to be his one on the side -- that means if the R/A/EMA starts evolving into a stressful situation, MM will walk away for awhile because he already has enough stress in his life. do you want to drive him further away? try to relax a little.
btw, BF and i are having a holiday party and he's stressed out because of all the prep -- painting, cleaning, food prep, all of which he's taking care of because i'm gone from the house 12-14 hours a day and he's there. so yes, there is plenty of stress to go around preparing for a party and all the other holiday stuff on top of it.
it also sounds like you're a little jealous that MM has a life other than with you. his M is his real life, you are his fantasy. MM will be back with you as soon as you relax and his stress level goes down.
BELIEVE WHAT HE SAYS and don't overthink it.
gurl
And I do miss him being available and attentive. My 4 or 5 emails have dwindled to one right before he leaves work, and my one phone call a day, once he left work, has seized to none. I'm upset about the no phone call thing, cause he could still, at least call.
I know you are right.
I'm wayyyyyyyy over thinking this. I just got to sit back and relax.
Thanks Gurl.
I just need to not take all this myself so hard either.