You will all be so disappointed in me..

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You will all be so disappointed in me..
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Mon, 12-08-2003 - 1:04pm
I have had contact with OM. I phoned shortly after i sent that card and nasty, passionate poem. He said he was glad i called. what could he do, i had blocked him from sending messages. I told him he could have called emailed. He said he just didn't like the words i said and knew i was angry. That he wants to continue, but not like this..we talked and afterwards he sent a text.. thanks

slowly we have been talking a bit here and there. not much. once a week on msn and i have been okay with that. then i told him that i will be coming to NL w/H in march. He seemed happy to hear, but was more concerned about not getting me in trouble, even saying we shouldn't see eachother. Not exactly the warm welcome. I told him that i have time for myself, we could meet in amsterdam for the day. he said that would be a good idea. BUt the idea of being in the same village as him for 2 days will drive me nuts.. just knowing he is right there, and i can't see him. H was very clear that he better not come over accidentally to bring anything to his father... etc..

well, his b-day is this wed, and i sent a card. he already thanked me, and i said that i missed him this morning.. nothing back.. great.. the rollercoaster starts again.. why am i letting this happen. i was soo good the past few weeks without him,and now he is back in, i feel like i need to see him again...

he was so sweet about saying he wants to come here etc.. made me feel like the old us again.. we shall see

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Thu, 12-11-2003 - 3:55am
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Thu, 12-11-2003 - 9:46am
Not disappointed mikko...just be careful and hang on to your heart hon.

Charlotte

 

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Thu, 12-11-2003 - 2:32pm
mikko, like charlotte, i'm not disappointed because after all we can't control our hearts, but guard your heart please. i just don't see your OM making ANY EFFORT at all towards making the R work between you two.

you are obviously not happy and OM is just going about his business, without a care in the world about your feelings. so what future do you see for the two of you?? you pining for OM, waiting for a few words via email or a couple of minutes on the phone?? mikko, you really, really need to look at this R and see it for what it is -- unfulfilling, upsetting, confusing. i'm sorry to be so negative, but i can't see an upside for you. do you?

gurl

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Fri, 12-12-2003 - 3:21am
thanks exactly what i am hanging on to.. my heart lights up when i get a message, but it has been months since i got an email or a phone call. He usually responds when i contact him, and its positive, but i am a fool. I wil be okay, thanks again