repeat offender

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Registered: 02-18-2004
repeat offender
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Thu, 03-11-2004 - 10:27am
I have been lurking this board since last July when I started an affair

with a M coworker. I've been married for 16 yrs and have 2 little ones

and never thought I would ever become involved in an affair! My H and I have

a pretty good relationship, but I find him unbearable boring!

MM and I fell in love, he freaked out with guilt, and ended it in Oct.

I was devastated and took it very personally. I had such a need to reafirm

my attractivness that I met and hooked up with another MM (10 yrs younger)

in Dec. Well it seems that this A is taking the same course as the first

although my feelings for him are not as deep as the other.

When I felt the relationship might be slipping away, I hooked up with

a single guy.

This pattern is beginning to worry me, esp. since I came very close to getting

caught last week.

Amazingly I have no guilt concerning my behavior! But, both MM did/do.

MM #2 has pretty much cut off the sexual aspect, (although he does try lol)

Thankfully S man does not have this problem.

I'm wondering...are there more problems and issues with MM than S ones?

I thought because we both had so much to lose and were on a level playing field

things would be much easier?

Thanks for letting me vent! Any advice would be much appreciated.

Dee

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Registered: 01-21-2004
In reply to: delannoy
Thu, 03-11-2004 - 11:02am

hi dee and welcome to the board!


well, you certainly are a busy bee, girl!

CL-Gurlfriend50

Co-CL of My Affair Support Board

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Registered: 02-18-2004
In reply to: delannoy
Thu, 03-11-2004 - 12:12pm
Gurlfiriend

Thanks for your response. I forgot to mention that I am sure I'm

having a midlife crises here! I'm in my mid forties, have never been

to crazy about sex until just recently, this coincided with the begining

of the first affair of course. My H is great in and out of bed, and yet

I'm not ready to give up my affairs. I am definetly not a sex addict

just experiencing an awakening! It doesnt help much that I lost my job in

Nov and have way too much time on my hands. Yes, these affairs have definitly

been life consuming, but at the same time..I've never felt so alive.

This board has been so helpful to me these past months, I'm so glad

I found it

Dee

iVillage Member
Registered: 01-21-2004
In reply to: delannoy
Thu, 03-11-2004 - 3:34pm

hi delannoy!

CL-Gurlfriend50

Co-CL of My Affair Support Board