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| Thu, 03-11-2004 - 10:27am |
I have been lurking this board since last July when I started an affair
with a M coworker. I've been married for 16 yrs and have 2 little ones
and never thought I would ever become involved in an affair! My H and I have
a pretty good relationship, but I find him unbearable boring!
MM and I fell in love, he freaked out with guilt, and ended it in Oct.
I was devastated and took it very personally. I had such a need to reafirm
my attractivness that I met and hooked up with another MM (10 yrs younger)
in Dec. Well it seems that this A is taking the same course as the first
although my feelings for him are not as deep as the other.
When I felt the relationship might be slipping away, I hooked up with
a single guy.
This pattern is beginning to worry me, esp. since I came very close to getting
caught last week.
Amazingly I have no guilt concerning my behavior! But, both MM did/do.
MM #2 has pretty much cut off the sexual aspect, (although he does try lol)
Thankfully S man does not have this problem.
I'm wondering...are there more problems and issues with MM than S ones?
I thought because we both had so much to lose and were on a level playing field
things would be much easier?
Thanks for letting me vent! Any advice would be much appreciated.
Dee
with a M coworker. I've been married for 16 yrs and have 2 little ones
and never thought I would ever become involved in an affair! My H and I have
a pretty good relationship, but I find him unbearable boring!
MM and I fell in love, he freaked out with guilt, and ended it in Oct.
I was devastated and took it very personally. I had such a need to reafirm
my attractivness that I met and hooked up with another MM (10 yrs younger)
in Dec. Well it seems that this A is taking the same course as the first
although my feelings for him are not as deep as the other.
When I felt the relationship might be slipping away, I hooked up with
a single guy.
This pattern is beginning to worry me, esp. since I came very close to getting
caught last week.
Amazingly I have no guilt concerning my behavior! But, both MM did/do.
MM #2 has pretty much cut off the sexual aspect, (although he does try lol)
Thankfully S man does not have this problem.
I'm wondering...are there more problems and issues with MM than S ones?
I thought because we both had so much to lose and were on a level playing field
things would be much easier?
Thanks for letting me vent! Any advice would be much appreciated.
Dee

hi dee and welcome to the board!
well, you certainly are a busy bee, girl!
CL-Gurlfriend50
Co-CL of My Affair Support Board
Thanks for your response. I forgot to mention that I am sure I'm
having a midlife crises here! I'm in my mid forties, have never been
to crazy about sex until just recently, this coincided with the begining
of the first affair of course. My H is great in and out of bed, and yet
I'm not ready to give up my affairs. I am definetly not a sex addict
just experiencing an awakening! It doesnt help much that I lost my job in
Nov and have way too much time on my hands. Yes, these affairs have definitly
been life consuming, but at the same time..I've never felt so alive.
This board has been so helpful to me these past months, I'm so glad
I found it
Dee
hi delannoy!
CL-Gurlfriend50
Co-CL of My Affair Support Board