Finally
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| Tue, 03-16-2004 - 9:54am |
I have to tell you that I am so happy to have found this support group. Finally, a place where I can tell almost all without being judged. It's such a relief.
Anyway, I am a MW having an A with a MM. We met at my previous work place. When he started working there, it was an instant attraction, an overwhelming feeling of recognition - quite strange actually - I have never felt something so strong before. While we worked together for over a year, there was never any misconduct between us. We got on very well, had daily chats, laughs, and of course always a bit of flirting, but nothing more. I never revealed my true feelings to him.
It wasn't until I was offered a new job that things started happening. Of course, I was extremely happy to be giving a wonderful career opportunity, but I also felt doomed at the prospect of never seeing my MM again. On my second last day of work, at the end of the day, I got into my vehicle to go home and there was a parcel and a card sitting on my front seat. Inside the parcel was a tub of jelly beans (this has inside meaning) and the card said how much I would be missed - it was from my MM. He was starting vacation time so he was not going to be at work on my last day.
Since I am an extremely emotional person, and I had some alone free time that evening, I wrote him a detailed letter expressing my feelings and how much of a positive impact he has had on me. Somehow, I found the courage to leave it in his In Box the next day. He would be on vacation for a week - and believe me, that was the longest week of my life. I really couldn't be sure how he would react - maybe he would think I was nuts! Fortunately for me, he loved it!
That was the beginning and we have now been involved for over 6 months. We have tried to end things twice now, due to guilt, but we are continually drawn back to each other. We communicate daily either by phone or email, and we see each other approximately once a week when we can coordinate our schedules.
I am find this week a bit tough. You see, he is on a cruise with his W and S - a function that his S is involved in. I have to admit, I'm jealous. I wish I were with him. When we met last week for a "Bon Voyage" encounter, we agreed that he would at some point drink a Martini for me and try to telepathically message me (I know, at little weird) when he was drinking it - we are supposed to compare notes when he gets back. He also said he would imagine us making love on a beach, we he sees the perfect one!
Anyway, it seems as though I've found you people just in the nick of time. Thank you so much. Have a wonderful day!
| Tue, 03-16-2004 - 11:03am |
