i'm cheating

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Registered: 03-16-2004
i'm cheating
Tue, 03-16-2004 - 4:49pm
I am having an affair with my boss!!! I travel with him once or twice a month and last Oct. we had a little to much to drink.... We only kissed then, but now we have been having sex every trip since. I love my husband with all my heart, I do!! I just can't seem to stop this affair. We leave again this Thurs. and all I can do is think about him and can't wait until I am in his arms. From the moment I pick him up to go to the airport we are kissing and he talks about how he can't wait to be at the hotel, blah blah blah, but this makes me want him even more. We he bushes up against my arm I get excited. I don't think I love him, but I do love the way he makes me feel. He is not married, but I am good friends with the mother of his child. We all get together for dinners, my husband, the mother and our kids. We act as if nothing is going on and that's that. My husband is a wonderful, wonderful man and we have no major problems in our marriage. Why am I doing this and for that matter, want to do this? I can not quit my job and I don't want to, regardless of what happens with us. I just don't know what to do. I look forward to being with him and that's what is scaring me so much.