Feeling down...yet again
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Feeling down...yet again
| Thu, 03-18-2004 - 11:42am |
I don't know why, but I'm feeling down again today. It has been almost a month since I was able to see my OW and unfortunately, I won't be able to see her for at least two more months. We talk almost every night on IM and the phone, but it seems we are drifting apart a bit lately. We both have busy lives so sometimes we are tired late at night. I guess I just feel like she has been a little distant lately. I know that is to be expected. But I've had jealousy problems in the past and I don't want to let those out again so I am coming here to vent. I know she loves me and even though she doesn't have to be faithful to me (she is S and I am M), she has been and continues to be. So I really have nothing to be jealous about, but she tells me about her day and everytime she mentions a guy showing her attention I feel pangs of jealousy. It doesn't happen that often, but when it does it is kind of like a punch in the stomach. I think it is because I'm so far away and I know I can't see her right now. So again, I don't really know what I'm looking for, just a pick-me-up I guess. Thanks everyone.

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I'd tell you a joke.. but I'm so bad at it that it would probably really push you over the edge. Cheer up, honey. We love you!
I know she has told me that she never means to make me jealous and is really just describing her day. I mean she is human like the rest of us so when someone shows interest it does flatter her. And I understand that. She also always tells me that even though some of these guys may be attractive, she isn't attracted to them because she has me. And I am all she'll ever want. :)
So again, I know my jealousies are silly, but I do have them. In some ways, I should be glad because with my W, I was never jealous for some reason. It was like I never cared enough to be jealous. It's hard to explain. But I love this girl more than I ever thought possible. I'm prepared to get hurt if that is the ultimate outcome too. She's worth that risk.
Thanks again for helping me get past this. You're both sweethearts.
Thanx,
Unsure
i just wanted to say you are in my thoughts. i know this must be a very hard time with you, dealing with the emotions of the divorce and being apart from your love. Hang in there, you will come out on the other side happier!
Hang in,
jen
CL-Gurlfriend50
Co-CL of My Affair Support Board
Let me hazard a guess that it's mostly your imagination and insecurities that make you feel this way - if I am not mistaken so far she hasn't given you any reasons for not trusting her. I am thinking - you say you will not be able to see her for two months. How about finding the time - in spite of how impossible or hard it may be? even if it's just one day, even if just a few hours - that's a crazy suggestion, I understand. But I'm sure this meeting, however brief, will bond you more than any telephone calls or IM's ever have or will.
I don't know what else to tell you, my man. I'd tell you to hang in there and try to be strong but that would be corny and pointless. How is it possible to stay strong when you just can't.
Try to take care of yourself too - I know that can be hard sometimes. Hugs.
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