Friday

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Registered: 06-18-2003
Friday
Sun, 03-21-2004 - 6:40am
Hey guys.Well Friday night after more talking between H,OM and I.They decided one last 3some and it was over.I'm going crazy I miss the flirting,him touching me.I do love him alot.Intrestingly Thursday he was very affectionate with me.He usually doesn't kiss me we just had sex.Thursday he kissed me a number of times.One time pulling me in his lap very passionately and kissing me.I'm beginning to think H was right OM is in love with me.He cut it off because his feelings are deeper than he wants to admit.The sex Friday night was awesome plus we had sex early Friday morning .

Sat I got a glimpse of emotions.A freind was babysitting 5 boys and brought them over to play with ds.One was 5 months.OM came around the corner and saw me holding this black baby.He made eye contact smiled big and kept the eye contact.He sat down with everyone but kept watching me hold the baby and smiling.He wants kids eventually.I can catch him still looking at me and watching me but when I catch him he looks away instead of giving me that I want you look.

I'm losing my mind and my heart is breaking.I refuse to go to him and beg.He's saying things to protect himself.Like I need work on my BJ's but everytime we got alone he wanted one.I saw through the comment so it didn't hurt me.I wish he would just admit he still wants me.He's miserable and it's tearing him up inside.He listens to songs that fit our situation etc.I want to go to him so bad and comfort him when he looks sad and you can tell he's hurting.I'm just praying he'll start back with me.

I'l be back.I know I'm going to need you.I wanted to email Gurl and get you to call me ysterday.I was so down and hurting but they had music going on the computer.

Renee