So sad....
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So sad....
| Thu, 03-25-2004 - 5:57pm |
I need to share with others in same/similar situation. I am so confused about my OM. I've only been on this site a couple other times and didn't say too much about my EMA. My OM lives in another country and is divorced. We chat almost daily and have for about a year. Saw each other last year for a few days with children along. Didn't offer us much privacy. Anyway, he is someone I've always wanted - first met about 23 years ago. He married and divorced, I am still married. While we have a really strong friendship, he wants no kind of committed relationship. I would consider leaving my marriage for him if he asked. He just wants an "e-relationship" with the possibly of meeting in a mutually agreed upon place for an affair. I keep going back and forth about ending the emotional EMA (because thats all it is really), but my mother is dying and he has been a really good friend throughout this. Talks to me almost daily to see how I'm doing, etc. He's very interested in my life and his interest makes me think he thinks about me a lot. Then, whenever I try to get closer (tell him he means a lot to me, etc.) all of a sudden, I don't hear from him for a couple days. He owns his own business and works a lot and has his children part of the week so I know he is busy. Its so hard for me to deal with his wishy-washy actions on top of watching my Mom die. I know it would be a relief to just "break-up" with him...but every time I try I find myself logging back on so we can chat. He always pursues me; almost always initiates a chat...pops up first thing in the morning when I sign on and is usually waiting for me in the evenings. I just don't know how to end it when I am so vulnerable already. By the way, my H knows that OM and I chat a lot and doesn't care...he even ok'd me meeting up with him last year since we had our children along. Help me to decided what to do about this!! Please!!
