Freaked out, ended it but started again

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Registered: 11-21-2008
Freaked out, ended it but started again
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Sat, 01-31-2009 - 6:07pm
So, had a little freak out last week and decided to end my LDA, over email no less. *yeah, I know* And then I was so depressed all last week not hearing from AP, who was totally cavalier about it btw, I asked him if we could forget the email and just keep going. Hell, at this point we may never see each other again but I love our texts and emails! When he was not able to text anymore yesterday, he sent me a "miss ya" and it just made me so happy. I think he was a little hurt even though I explained it was b/c I felt bad about what could happen if his W ever found out and my H ever found out (we both have children). I really don't know what got into me.... but of course it's all good now. I hope things go back to normal on Monday and I hear from him often.
Anyone done something similar and then been like wtf did I do that for?? haha
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Registered: 03-19-2008
Sun, 02-01-2009 - 12:42am
Oh yeah, i've done it more times than I can count. I think my ap expects it now, but never believes it. I once sent this long drawn out email about why it needs to end. Then minutes later sent another one that said, "disregard that last email". I am a mess, emotions up and down, daily. I dont know how he puts up with me. So, yeah I know the feeling.
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Registered: 01-16-2009
Mon, 02-02-2009 - 2:03am

OMG, the first time AP and I were together before Seth came along, man I was a fruit loop! HE would call a day late, and I would zapp out, and tell him not to call me anymore. Then 20 minutes later I called him back talking about "I'm sorry!" He was never forgiving.

This go round is totally different from too many reasons to list here, but I'm much more like a lucky charm, as apposed to a fruit loop. Ap is much happier, and so am I. Even though he still has a long way to go.