will always love XAP

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Registered: 10-03-2008
will always love XAP
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Thu, 02-12-2009 - 2:09pm

as some of you know he's different when it comes to aps or xaps....we have LC, and i didn't really think he'd be thinking of me around this time because it's been a month and a couple of days since we've seen one another..although we've spoken here and there by text...i found out today that he did get me something for vtines day and bday..well he actually told me by text but he has to work so when he gets back i'll get it at some point...


well i did get him a vtines day card and a nice gift..he'll love...i got it early january....


i also let him know that i will always love him 1 minute from now to 10 years from now and that we are both trying to do the right thing for our lives.....but it's hard letting go of an important part of your life and he is very important to me.....i think he was a little miffed that i had to text it to him but i told him i'm still raw from ending it and one day i'll be able to face him and talk about it...


just wanted to let those who think a's end badly or that you'll despise someone afterwawrds, it doesn't necessarily go that way..you can end things and remain friends and love from afar...i'm a true firm believer that love does not go away...it is always there....

"be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind"---Dr. Seuss

"be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind"---Dr. Seuss

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Registered: 01-17-2009
Thu, 02-12-2009 - 2:12pm
What a nice way of putting it. I'm glad you are able to remain friends. It shows how much he means to you. I wish you well. I hope things turn out good for you.
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Registered: 10-03-2008
Fri, 02-13-2009 - 8:23am

thanks he means a whole lot to me...he's an important part of my life...although we are just gonna have to learn to be in love, and love one another apart....it's a very cool way of doing things...i am moving forward and i actually feel better knowing that he loves me and cares a great deal about me...i DID NOT expect a bday and v-tines day card or whatever at all...we ended things a month ago...it's still very emotional for the both of us...i guess it would have to be or our relationship meant nothing..huh?

"be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind"---Dr. Seuss

"be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind"---Dr. Seuss

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Registered: 04-17-2006
Sun, 02-15-2009 - 3:09pm

Girl you are reading my mind today, so much so its scary. As you may remember I broke things off with AP a month ago because I got tired of the LC and the indifference, I sort of just snapped one day and realized that I couldn't play the game the way that HE wanted to anymore.....I really was comfortable in my decision, just not how I acted to get my point across (like a loon)....Well wouldn't you know it I get this email a few days ago wishing me a happy birthday and some other small talk, pleasant and if you read between the lines you can see that this man does indeed care about me. I think that even if we never saw one another again the feelings would still be there, you don't just turn them off and sweep it all under the rug. I feel like i'm in a really good place...yeah I miss him but I'm not making any more attempts to set up a meeting, etc. or try and get him to be who I want him to be or say what I want him to say. the nice part is I don't harbor any resentment against him, he was and is a truly wonderful man. It's okay to always love your XAP.....love is a good thing. the cirumstances are what stink....it is important to realize that we don't always get what we want or who we love.

Iknow i'm rambling on and on but it is hard to get these feelings out....I feel so many things at once when i think of him.

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Registered: 08-17-2008
Sun, 02-15-2009 - 3:50pm

omg you guys made me cry i received a tex saying you already

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Registered: 06-25-2007
Sun, 02-15-2009 - 5:01pm

You do not know how much I needed to read your posts today.