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What do I do now?
| Sat, 02-14-2009 - 8:02pm |
I haven't been on here in quite a number of months, I thought I was better and things were over but not the case.
| Sat, 02-14-2009 - 8:02pm |
I haven't been on here in quite a number of months, I thought I was better and things were over but not the case.
Mah Tame,
Maybe you should stay the course, get out of your loveless marriage (the things these men say to you to break you down, breaks my heart). The AP said outloud that he doesn't love you. Quit chasing those that do not ADD to your soul.
You are needing your soul lifted. Work on lifting your own and leave these horrendously narcissistic people behind. Once you love yourself enough to understand this, you can then compliment your life with those who lift you up SINCERELY and with much more depth, than these shallow asses.
Want MORE for yourself and you will get more FOR yourself and build up IN yourself and have more to GIVE of yourself than a sexual relationship. Sex is fine but if you are just filling a role as someone's vessel......yours stays empty and you have things these clods cannot understand that need fullfilling, things you give yourself when you treat yourself with some confidence and respect and raising your own bar and have expectations other than being their ho they get their poor excuse of an ego filled by.
There are good men out there but frankly, these two aren't among them. Be with yourself for awhile so that you can discern this. It really is the only way...getting away from the sickness to see the forest from the trees.
Lizzie
I agree with Lizzie. You need to be on your own for awhile, think about your life and what you want to have in it. You should surround yourself with good friends who really care about you; fill your dwelling with things you love; figure out what's important to you, and then work on having those things. Both the men in your life seem to be "toxic" to you - they take away from your happiness and your feelings of self worth. Dig deep and try to find out why you seem to want that negativity in your life. Understanding that could be a big key to ending that sort of destructive pattern.
Good luck sweetie, I hope everything works out!
Some would say that I fell from grace... but I didn't.
You've got a lot of choices. I
Lexione and Lizzie-
Thanks to both of you for the advice.
Mah Tame
ya know what Mahtame...if a man can tell me he doesn't love me...then I will take him up on his 'bluff' as you are so inclined to think. You must get something out of such a cruel yet passionate (and I don't mean sexual but more like dramatic) situation. Is it better to feel abused and disregarded just because he 'can' because it is dramatic and
Mah Tame