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| Tue, 02-17-2009 - 9:11pm |
I don't know...I know that going through a divorce can be hard, even if you know in your heart that it's what you want...I don't know if that's what MM is going through now or what. He was gone for 2 days at work last week, supposedly for an aunts funeral that his wife went with him to...I texted him all weekend and received nothing..he claims he did text me and wanted to know why I wasn't answering, which I don't know if it's true or not..today was the first time I've really talked with him. This morning, he was later to work than usual ( says he's having to pick up his cousins boyfriend from work in the morning now before he goes to work) and when I texted him and asked where he was, he responded a half hour later saying he was "fighting with her"...he acted a nervous when we were talking in my vehicle and said he would like a little time to straighten out his head, but didn't want me to take it the wrong way. He said he was still in love with me. I asked if he wanted to take off early from work, which we did and I asked if he wanted to go back to his place..and to my suprise he said ok...I really didn't think he still had the apartment..I thought he had moved back home...well, we had a good time :) and he told me that they had really been talking about a lot of things...he said that she told him that he wasn't moving back in there and he said he told her he didn't expect to...said he told her he wasn't giving her money out of his next check because he had to pay his rent..mentioned that his Dad is helping him to find an attorney ( he has to get one from out of town because his wife works at the courthouse in town)...says he just can't wait to get all of this done..but yet at the same time, the texts aren't as frequent at night like they have been...I asked if he told her exactly why he moved out and he said that he's sure she knows, but he's not coming right out and admitting it's because he wants to be with me...says he's telling her things "a little at a time" because he doesn't want to dump everything on her at once...he knows that it will crush her to know that he is leaving her for someone else and not just because he doesn't feel like the marriage isnt working anymore...I don't know..part of me is fuming because it's like, just fricking tell her and get it over with, whats the big deal, then part of me knows that I have to let him handle things the way he thinks is best. He says that she keeps telling him that I'm lying to him?? The woman doesn't even know me so I don't know what she means by that. I do kind of wonder if he doubts me...he says he doesnt, but I wonder if he's afraid if he goes through with the divorce and I change my mind, he will be alone and I think being alone is difficult for him...I just don't know...I guess I will just go along with things and see what happens...in the mean time I am not giving up anything in my life until I know for damn sure he files and goes through with it.

Don't know your whole story but I know what he's going through.