The lonliness is crushing

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Registered: 08-23-2009
The lonliness is crushing
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Sun, 10-25-2009 - 9:19pm
I am married and so is he. I am in love with him. He says he loves me but won't let himself be "in love" with me -- he has to draw a line there. As far as I'm concerned, it's the mind game he plays with himself to make it okay for us to be close, sexual, intimate, whatever you want to call it. He won't call it a love affair. Meanwhile - weekends are SO hard. The contact is so sparse over the weekends and I know it's all about family, mine as well as his. Ever since I started this, I find myself more lonely than ever - even in a roomful of people. I'm just sharing this for those who feel the same. I don't need anyone telling me to get out of the relationship and don't want any psycho analysis. thank you
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Registered: 08-11-2009
Sun, 10-25-2009 - 9:38pm

Hi sunnyd_999,


It is very lonely at times and I miss AP so much when we are apart.

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Registered: 10-25-2009
Mon, 10-26-2009 - 3:00am

Yes, I am in the very same boat. Weekends are hard and I can hardly wait for Monday morning when he calls or texts me on his way to work. Recently I told him how hard the weekends are for me and asked him to send me a text and he has done that, so I feel a little better. He's invited me out on the weekends but it is so hard to get away.


This weekend I was so depressed, I stayed in bed and cried. My husband thinks that I am clinically depressed and I probably am. But my boyfriend sent me a text and I felt so much better, I got up, took a shower and interacted with my family. I know you don't want to be psychoanalyzed but I do. I am starting counseling this week because the whole A is disrupting my life. I don't know what will happen. Will I end

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Registered: 10-25-2009
Mon, 10-26-2009 - 3:06am

Aliveagain09,


I am curious, are you divorcing to be with you AP or do you think you were going to divorce no matter what?


Well, good luck...

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Registered: 10-10-2009
Mon, 10-26-2009 - 8:39am
I agree. Weekends suck! lol. I talk to AP on the weekends but its not the same like during the week. Im busy on the weekends tho and I know he is soo I will drop a line or 2 to him to just say Hello. Its crazy how an A consumes your life..it constantly runs thru the mind day/night.
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Registered: 08-11-2009
Wed, 10-28-2009 - 1:05am

Hi ntheampm,


My D had

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Registered: 10-28-2009
Wed, 10-28-2009 - 11:08pm
I am totally in the same boat!
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Registered: 08-28-2004
Thu, 10-29-2009 - 12:51am

Its crazy how an A consumes your life..it constantly runs thru the mind day/night. I couldnt have said it any better.


This A is so tiring, I just dont know what to do at this point. I'm bout ready to throw in the towel.