Do you feel guilty...ever?
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| Mon, 10-26-2009 - 5:11pm |
So, I'm just curious. I kissed my AP a couple of times before anything else ever happened between us and afterwards I felt REALLY guilty about it. Today, I did more than kiss - everything but IC. During, as it progressed more and more, I felt a little guilty. Afterwards I felt really high, though. I'm kinda waiting for the bomb in my head to go off or something b/c I thought I'd be a wreck afterwards. I don't know what's wrong with me. It makes me feel guilty that I don't feel more guilt about the situation.
So, my question is, do you feel guilty after meeting your AP for sex or whatever? Or, do you feel high at first and then guilt later? Do you not feel the guilty until the A is over? Do you never feel guilt?
I guess it's weird to me b/c I do love my H. Our sex life is bad, but other than that, he's a pretty good guy. So, I should feel really bad, I would think. But the experience was so GOOD that I almost just feel elated to have it finally happen. I was walking around wondering if this is what life would be for me - bad sex and a mediocre life, but I just got one of the best experiences, sexually, of my life and so far I'm feeling pretty good.

Dear Confused,
Only once for a brief moment after the first PC and that was gone as I drove maybe it lasted five minutes.
Since then have I ever felt guilty--NOPE.
I can't remember ever feeling guilty... and I've been cheating since h.s.
Mostly I feel high, almost giddy. Not just about the sex but about having this secret just for myself about what I'm doing. It really is like a drug.
-jana