tried to end it....but I couldn't

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Registered: 10-25-2009
tried to end it....but I couldn't
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Thu, 12-17-2009 - 4:13pm

I've been on the EAS board for a while because I tried to end my A.

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Registered: 10-25-2007
Thu, 12-17-2009 - 8:39pm
I'm sorry to hear that you feel so bad. That's what happens and it doesn't get any easier. Just hang in there if this is what you want. It's happy at times and painful a lot of the time. Hope well for you
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Registered: 10-25-2009
Thu, 12-17-2009 - 9:20pm

The problem is that I don't really know what I want.

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Registered: 10-25-2007
Fri, 12-18-2009 - 5:44pm
Ya know, I sometimes sit and think "What am I doing?" Am I so pathetic and needy that I keep doing this even though it hurts a lot? I feel plain stupid sometimes.
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Registered: 12-14-2009
Mon, 12-21-2009 - 10:30am
I know how you feel. I know I need to end this A, but I can't. It is pure hell. He is single, newly divorced, and he needs the chance to go find happiness with someone who can give him a real relationship. I need to let him go so he can do that, but I cant. I struggle with this daily. He doesnt want to find someone else right now...he loves me. But we both know that there will come a time that a part time relationship is not going to be enough. So what do you do?? Do I end it, and break his heart now, or wait till he breaks mine because he needs to move on. There is no easy answer.
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Registered: 10-25-2007
Mon, 12-21-2009 - 12:59pm
I am struggling with this right now. He knows I love him but he hasn't expressed love to me but I feel it's coming and I am afraid I will lose him. I can tell you that I can never end it and will just wait until my heart is broken if, and when it happens. I hope not but I haven't the strength to end it either. It's hell, I know. I feel bad for you because I know how you feel. It's hard to let go of something that makes you happy for the most part. I don't know what to do either.