An end one way or the other
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An end one way or the other
| Thu, 05-27-2010 - 1:32pm |
My AP and I entered into this affair both not wanting to be cheaters. We've known each other for a decade and have apparently both been fighting feelings for a long time. We finally couldn't fight it any longer. HE's said all along he can't go further and always does. We have both fallen hard for each other. He was the one that talked about being together, right from the start actually, before we even started anything. We've both decided that it's too hard to go on like this, him more than me but I am okay with it. We will have a week or more coming up where my family is gone. We are going to take that time to spend lots of time together and he has said it will either be the start of something, or we will be going out with a bang. I told him before he needs to decide what he wants, he said he'll know by the end of that time. I almost feel like it's a job interview, i need to perform, but we are so close I know it's not like that. I will be able to be myself. I just hope all goes well between now and then. I know it's not really fair for me, I can't get too excited in the meantime or think too much, but at the same time I can't wait.
