Numb with Worry

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Registered: 07-12-2008
Numb with Worry
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Fri, 05-28-2010 - 5:00pm

I've been in this A with MM for over 2 years now and things had just recently gotten to where we were so comfortable with each other.

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Registered: 04-27-2010
Fri, 05-28-2010 - 8:04pm
Spy...just sending you some ((HUGS)) because I know how HARD this must be. This scenario is one of my worst nightmares...it's difficult to even think of not standing by someone you care so much about. Hang in there...he knows you care and probably knows it's killing you not to be at his side.
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Registered: 07-12-2008
Fri, 05-28-2010 - 10:28pm

Thank you, kimber!

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Registered: 04-27-2010
Sat, 05-29-2010 - 9:53am

You're welcome, and thanks :)


With my AP and I, we would know about something happening, but not right away. And noone would bat an eye at either of us showing up for the other's funeral...(morbid thought, I know), BUT I've often wondered if in that situation I could contain my emotions. I would probably appear far more upset than just

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Registered: 10-01-2009
Sat, 05-29-2010 - 9:58am

OMG. This is my worst nightmare. I'm so sorry you have to go through this.

I already know how this scenario would go down. I would not be able to see him. He would not be able to see me.

I've been there, in small ways, when I got sick, really sick on Thanksgiving day. And I was at home, alone, endlessly throwing-up. And he wasn't there for me, when I needed him. I can't imagine dealing with something like Cancer.

I don't have any advise for you. I guess just write down how you feel.

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Registered: 07-12-2008
Sat, 05-29-2010 - 10:03am

I will know more in a week or so after his tests are complete.

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Registered: 03-26-2010
Sat, 05-29-2010 - 5:03pm

I just wanted to say I am thinking of you and your AP.