Great weekend away with AP..BUT.........

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Registered: 04-11-2010
Great weekend away with AP..BUT.........
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Sat, 06-19-2010 - 4:07am

Hi all


So we had our two day dirty weekend. It was lovely- for a bit. The first afternoon and evening was perfect- romantic, flirty, passionate lovemaking- all the things we have done before. We talked openly about feelings (normally a big no-go zone) and he said some really lovely things (again something he normally tries to avoid as his guilt issues have been huge in the past). So it was


The second day- it was as if we had been married 30 years. We talked only about current afairs and he was

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Registered: 04-27-2010
Sat, 06-19-2010 - 9:46am

Glad you had a good time, IGS

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Registered: 05-03-2010
Sat, 06-19-2010 - 1:31pm

I have to agree with kimber.

anotherseyes

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Registered: 04-11-2010
Sun, 06-20-2010 - 12:15am

Thanks guys


You are very right- it is simply my expectations getting in the way, and the built up excitement of having time with him.


I certainly dont like (love) him less for having seen his many 'normal' traits and I agree that the shine is definately fading after 14mths. He was lovely and romantic for the most part, and our farewell was just as warm and loving as I would have wished.


There was just that glitch (after a call from his family btw) where he went sort of quiet and aloof. Maybe its his guilt monster resurfacing (which panics me as he has ended it twice before because he feels so guilty). He felt he was getting past it (or coping better). Maybe he isnt and another ending (maybe the final one) is looming.


The previous two ends were short lived- literally 24 hrs first time and 1 week the second time.

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