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| Fri, 09-03-2010 - 2:56am |
if he weren't so cute, i would be having a complete fit by now. how do u you reconcile not being able to see your AP when u really really want to? it's been two weeks since our last visit and i don't even think we've had a real conversation in all this time, just a lot of emails, voice messages, etc... but we are each sooo busy, and on top of that sooooo very very careful, too. i sent him a note telling him that i am so glad we do not work together b/c i would be a mess if i had to see him so regularly, but then i realized this week: i am a freaking mess b/c i don't see him so regularly anyway. oi vey!!!! where is the happy medium? where is the effortless balance? i'm totally chubbing out b/c of the stress/lack of complete satisfaction. i should just start smoking, or drinking excessively. i think that might be a better vice than "him". UGH!! it is soooo frustrating sometimes!!!!

Hi Mariemariemarie2010,
I just take a deep breath and accept the situation...easier said than done I know but I've had a lot of practise this year...I understand how truly frustrating it is.
I'm hoping to see MM next week (only the third time this year) and he
i have been thinking a lot about your reply to me. u r lucky to have him tell u that he loves you. i am not there yet. i'm not even sure i want to be in love. am already in love with the H, and that isn't working out so good. lol
AP
I feel your pain...it has been over 2 months since I last saw AP (when we had been able to see each other 4-5 times a month for the last 8 months) and it is so hard on me.
Hi Marie
I am lucky, I saw