think i am still in love with another ma
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think i am still in love with another ma
| Mon, 08-20-2007 - 10:28am |
ok this may be long so i apologize in advance. i am 25, married for 5 years, one kid. my husband is a good provider, and father, but he is somewhat old fashioned, he does not like me going anywhere without him, and you can forget me going out with friends to a place that serves alcohol, he lacks trust, i have never gave him a reason, he just does, but soon i may....i think i am still in love with my best guy friend, whom my husband,when we were dating, made me stop being friends with. my friend and i have been friends since i was 15. from the beginning i fell in love with him, but he always had a girlfriend, so i never said anything. after we graduated from high school we were inseperable, we did everything together, college, walked to classes together, after we got off of work, we were together, as friends....which his girlfriend hated. she told him he would have to chose and he told her that i was going no where....so she dropped it...he would try to get me to double date with them just so that him and i could hang out, he would invite me to his family gatherings even though it infuriated his girlfriend...she would always make him upset one way or the other and he would say that he wanted to break up but then would back out. well one night about 3 weeks before i met my husb, my guy friend tells me that he is going to break up with his girlfriend, that he wants to be with me, i tell him that he should know that i feel the same, well that night passes and he never said another word again, i met my husb, started getting serious way to fast and was married within a year...i had to tell my friend we could no longer be friends, to which he responded "ok" and hung up on me...well years have gone by and i cant gethim out of my head, dreams, etc...i have talked to him recently, i am so confused, i am right back were i was 6-7 years ago, hopelessly in love with him, but now married with a kid....i love my husband, in the sense that i want him to be healthy etc, but as far as emotion, i have none for him and haven't for sometime now, i had to take care of my dying grandmother a year ago all bymyself while he was out of town the whole time working,my best girl friend who he didnt like either passed away, i have guilt over that because i would have to sneek and see her because he didnt like her....anyway i am heartbroken and confused, i need something, advice, help, something....please respond...

Welcome to the board dwn2earthgal,
The choices we make dictate the life we lead......but please, please don't go from the frying pan to the fire.
Welcome to the board dwn2earthgal,
I think you need to end your contact with your male friend until you have things figured out in your marriage. Having contact with him is only going to make you want him more and your husband less.
Why do you want to do about your marriage? Do you want to get divorced? Do you want to try and fix it?
Do what you have to regarding your marriage and then you can figure out what you want to do about your friend.
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