Single life is confusing...

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Registered: 06-24-2004
Single life is confusing...
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Fri, 08-12-2005 - 10:35am

Hi to all!!

Well i guess i decided to write this post last night when i realized that i'm completely feed up with myself. I've hit the point where i don't know what I want. I mean... here's my story... I just ended an engagement as of April because of controlling issues. We were together for about 2 yrs. So, since April i've been doing alot of soul searching, trying to figure out what "I" want for once. I've spent lots of time with friends and family. And I've done things that I wanted to do for once. So, i haven't really dated all summer and i've been talking about how i want to go on dates. Well i got asked on a date yesterday and I realized that for once... i don't think i ever want to date... i mean, i know it sounds horrible, but, i realized how awkward the dating wordl is, everything about it... I realized that i was so hurt in past relationships that i don't want to go on dates for fear I'll actually like the person that i go on a date with. I dont' want to like someone. I want to be selfish for once. I feel bad for not wanting to go out on dates but... i really don't. I guess i'm just confused and don't want to hurt anybody's feelings. I dunno, it would just be nice to hear from some girls who know what i'm talking about. All my friends are in relationships and can't really understand where i'm coming from, even though they try... thanks so much for just letting me post my feelings....
J.L.

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Registered: 03-20-2003
Fri, 08-12-2005 - 10:43am

It really hasn't been all that long since you broke up.