Doing it all
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Doing it all
| Mon, 09-19-2005 - 7:49am |
Sometimes I wonder if I could handle maintaining a marriage and children while still having a job and doing the necessities like cleaning and making dinner.

I have moments where I wonder if I want kids, but they usually pass.
So true.
Well, you are a couple of steps ahead of me. I don't, as a rule, love kids. Now, that being said, I think that my screen name shows how devoted I am to my nephews. I would throw myself in front of a bus for either one of them. My sister has always been the most important person in my life but I would have no trouble taking her down if she were a threat to those boys.
Even with that being said, they bore the heck out of me sometimes. I cannot spend hours playing with them. After about hour 2, I get very restless. I never let them sense this and shelter them from my complete lack of maternal skills, but it's there. I am sure you know how toddlers will ask you to read the same book to them over and over and over. My sister will do this with them and I get that the repetition helps them learn. But I have a rule with them. Each time we read a book, we count the time so that we all know that time number 3 is the last one. I find that I want them to take naps a lot and I just don't take the kind of joy in them that my mother does or some of my cousins do when it comes to the playing.
I am not the kind of person to get in a sandbox. In fact, it is difficult for me to make myself sit on the floor. When they stay with me for the weekend, all I can think about is them leaving and my sitting down with an ice bucket, a bottle of burboun, a pack of cigarettes, and the Bach cello suites.
My point is this - you have what I think are normal and VERY legitimate concerns about being a parent. Getting tired, being good at it, and all of that. My worries are more about them hijacking my life which I love so well.
Hehe...
Even with that being said, they bore the heck out of me sometimes.
That is too funny.