going to court this week

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Registered: 02-05-2005
going to court this week
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Sat, 01-07-2006 - 2:57pm

ok, so most of you should recall by now that i was raped 2 years ago. If you dont recall well, now ya know. Its been a long wait and a fight in the system.
this is my fourth time in court thanks to a man who thinks he still has my life.

well, the first one was a hungjury but becuase of his parole violations he was staying in jail. the second time was postponed due to a witness not showing up. The third time...the J***A** accepted a plea bargain and plead guilty to the assault. Then 3 weeks later the head judge overturns that plea bargain and the sentence given. HE(the judge) stated that it was way under the guidelines for the crime the man committed on me and he offered him a longer harsher sentence. THE JA refused that offer and said he was NOT GUILTY. SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO, the judge said...ok, back to court ya go.
well, the time is here...this upcoming week i have to relive everything all over again.
Please pray for me that all turns out well on my side and this JA gets what he deserves.
HIS privates chopped off and he is then forced to eat them.

ewwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww!!!, i just grossed myself off with that visual..ROFL, sorry, its my viciousness coming thru i suppose and i have a right to feel this way. That man changed my life forever. I will let ya'll know how things go.

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Registered: 03-20-2003
Sat, 01-07-2006 - 5:38pm

I hope everything goes well for you and you can finally put this behind you, or at least try to do it as best you can.

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Registered: 10-11-2005
Sun, 01-08-2006 - 4:35pm
Take care....you will be in my thoughts for the best turnout possible.
E
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Registered: 11-01-2005
Mon, 01-09-2006 - 6:00pm
Sending good thoughts and warm wishes your way.
I'm sorry you have to go through all of that again!

AJ, enjoying life with C.

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Registered: 12-03-2003
Mon, 01-09-2006 - 9:03pm
Goodness, I don't even know what to say. I hope the bastard stays in jail for the rest of his life. Be strong and if you could, look him right in the face when you are testifying to let him know that, while they've drag this case on for 2 years and while he's done something to you that you can never forget, you will still be strong and move on with your life. I am sure the past two years hasn't been easy. I hope this ends very quickly. Good luck and lots and lots of hugs to you.
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Registered: 02-05-2005
Tue, 01-10-2006 - 3:46pm

ITS ALL OVER!!!!! I did it ....i did it.... I DID IT!!!!!

THE LORD has answered my prayers that the bastard would agree to plea bargain so i would not have to go through verbal memory repeats.
ok so let me set you up for the day. it was awesome. NO SNOW...NO RAIN...JUST alternations of sun, 50 degrees outside and cloudiness. A lady from my church offered to go with me and drive. what an angel to have with me. Over the past 6 months over done so much healing and changing. I changed my hair color and went short legnth. I began to pray for the bastard that he would be enlightened by the spirit and God to own his wrongdoing to me. and that is exactly what happened. no jury...just a plea bargain judge and it was glorious.

The victims advocates didnt even receognize me from the countless other times i had been to the courthouse up to september of 2004( i carried blonde long hair and was angry and scared of that a-hole). They had complimented me on the way i had carried myself coming towards them. They said that didnt even know it was me till i spoke to them. I was so ready to kick butt that morning. The state trooper and my lawyer also did not recognize me and they also complimented me and said i was glowing with confidence.

In the courtroom i sat on my attackers side...5 rows behind him(two behind his wife and his mom). With bible in my hands and reading psalms 25 thru 34 i was waiting turn till my lawyer got to my case...she saved it for nearly last. (OH DA PRESSURE), but she was smiling at me because she knew i had come a great way since last year).
ok...so we finally get to my case and my attacker looks back at his wife and spots me. omg i looked his square in the eyes and i just nodded my head at him. I had no fear.
he had a look of disgust on his face and looked away.
he moved up to the HOTSEAT near the judge.

My lawyer proceeds to tell the judge that I am in agreement to a plea bargain and she continued on to say that she felt it to be in my best interest for that because of the positive changes made by me for me and she added that i left the attackers brother which was part of my issues and understandably so since they looked so much alike. She said that i had morfed from the victims walk to the survivor strut and carry myself with dignity and pride and am living well. (i heard a scoffing from my attacker when she said that).

The judge then says to my lawyer..."is she in here today?" and i spoke up..."yes your honore i am ". he has me raise my right hand and i say under oath i am in agreement with the plea bargain. He then proceeds to ask my attacker about 8 questions concerning the events that took place that night and how he pleaded. I was crying as i heard the voice of my attacker all over again, BUT, i was at peace and happy as i heard him claim guilt to beating me, threatening more harm to me and that he forced me to have sex with him against my will. When it was all over...he, my attacker and his lawyer are walking back towards the back row where i was sitting. I looked straight at him and smiled at him and said "GOD be with you", as he passed right in front of me without even a look at me. HE knew he had been beat by me and he could not face me.

He now will be sent to the state pen to face state parole baord for violating his parole. so i will be writing a letter to the board asking them to not be leanient on him whatsoever. i pray they throw the book at him. I no longer have to see his face or hear his voice.

Victory by the graces of the power of the lord. I lifted this issue up to god so many months ago and it was over teh xmas holiday season that i began to feel peace entering me and confidence gaining. Thank you , all of you who have prayed with me and for me during this trying time. I am a soldier of god and have helped god strike down another work of the devil. God is good,all the time. All the time, God is good.

The best revenge is LIVING WELL and that is what i began doing over these past 6 months.

i leave you all with a smile, a dance of joy, and a thank you.