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| Thu, 08-30-2007 - 12:44pm |
I know things could be worse, but I'm just frustrated (as usual) with life lately. I've been so frazzled with work and we're FINALLY getting a temp because one of my co-workers and I are doing far more than we can handle (and I'm still bored)...when we interviewed a candidate for another job, someone mentioned that the good thing about working for such a small place is that you get to wear more than one hat...I'm wearing so many hats that they're falling off my head. And if you can believe it, I'm a year out of college and was hired to be an admin assistant. DEFINITELY not an admin assistant anymore.
That frustration and boredom has led me to the conclusion that I want to go back to school so that I can ACTUALLY work in an art-related profession (teaching, gallery work, museum work, research, whatever). However, I have very little money and absolutely no time to study for the GRE's, which I'll probably take in November.
And finally, as I've said a million times, I don't mind being single, but I do mind not dating. And the guys I do date (or have dated) end up being total tools that end up dating some complete ditz (it may sound mean, but I'm sorry, it's true). I never thought it was my taste that had to change, but maybe it does! I am not at all the same as some girl who, at 26, calls herself an Heiress (remember?), puts little hearts after everything, and plays beer pong regularly (and takes it seriously). My actual ex whom I dated for almost two years ended up dumping me for a girl who's four years younger than me (which is a lot when I was a sophomore in college and she was a sophomore in high school). I think I need to shape up and look for someone a LITTLE more sophisticated. :) I definitely have that kid-at-heart side, but people tease me about acting so much more mature than I am, even for superficial reasons; I love wine (and KNOW wine), art, I don't drink just for the heck of it or purposely to get drunk, I'm self-sufficient (not by much, but I'm still there! :) ), independent, intelligent...argh.

LOL Why thank you. I'm really not usually a complainer, but I come here to do my venting. Sorry. :)
It's less being angry or upset about things than being frustrated and just not getting it. I find myself asking, "seriously??" quite often...of course that could have something to do with watching too much Grey's Anatomy.
Dang, I guess there's no hope for me at 53 ;-)
Man, that's rough: dumping you for a girl in HIGH SCHOOL??? I guess at my age, it's a safe bet that a man wouldn't dump me for a high school girl, so I guess that's one advantage.
I am surprised to hear you are having trouble meeting sophisticated men in Boston. I think of it as sophisticated and metropolitan (I've never been). Maybe I'm wrong. People have told me I should move to New York City, but I hear women complaining there that they can't meet men, so I guess Boston is no better. What the h*ll is going on here when a young woman can't meet a man? I don't get it.
Good for you for taking charge of your professional life. I think it's great to go back to school when you're still young, and wonderful that you know what you want...so many people don't. So, I say go for it!
Now, I must ask a question. What is a "total tool"? I'm behind on this one.
>>What the h*ll is going on here when a young woman can't meet a man? I don't get it.
I don't know!! :)
>>I am surprised to hear you are having trouble meeting sophisticated men in Boston. I think of it as sophisticated and metropolitan (I've never been). Maybe I'm wrong. People have told me I should move to New York City, but I hear women complaining there that they can't meet men, so I guess Boston is no better.
Well, I don't necessarily think it's all the city's fault, I think it's partially me. I have a weakness for athletes, which probably isn't the most helpful in trying to find more mature/sophisticated men (though I'm sure there are guys that are both out there). I also tend to date in my age group (well, 23-25,26-ish) who aren't typically the most mature either (some, not all! :) ).
>>Good for you for taking charge of your professional life. I think it's great to go back to school when you're still young, and wonderful that you know what you want...so many people don't. So, I say go for it!
That's what everyone's been telling me...I'm glad that I've worked for a few years, but I think I'll miss the financial stability. I remember digging for change in my purse so I could buy a coffee in college. :) I know a Masters would do me good no matter what, but a PhD....well, we'll see.
>>Now, I must ask a question. What is a "total tool"? I'm behind on this one.
LOL Sorry. :) I actually never used to use the word tool, but it grew on me. It's usually used kind of for posers, but I liked it in this case. :)
"Now, I must ask a question. What is a "total tool"? I'm behind on this one."
The word "tool" is also used to refer to a male appendage.
I have friend in New York, and its worse there.
~Heather~
>>I can relate to not being able to meet nice men in Boston. The bigger the city, the harder it is to form attachments. Its easy to get locked into a pattern.
I have friend in New York, and its worse there.
I simultaneously get it and don't. I think a big appeal of the city (for me, anyway) is the ability to be anonymous when you feel like it, but I think that gets a little out of control at times. I usually end up dating guys that aren't even from around here....I should try an MA guy, but I can't find them! :)
I may have found a new potential flirtation, if nothing else, in (so cliche) the guy I buy coffee from (great European food store/cafe in Harvard Square) in the morning. :) Probably a little bit older than me, could be a student (grad, I sincerely hope...no more early 20-somethings), definitely cute...I hadn't really noticed him before today, but I could tell he was looking at me and I went, "hey wait a minute, he's cute!" This is could also be part of my problem, I often go through my day completely oblivious...another symptom of city living, I think. :)