Valentine's Day- Hitting me kinda hard

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Registered: 06-11-2004
Valentine's Day- Hitting me kinda hard
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Mon, 02-14-2005 - 1:39pm

How are you guys handling V-Day today.
It's starting to get to me a bit. I woke up in good spirits. My ex called to "wish me happy valentines day" I let the machine take the call. I felt good about doing that. Then at work a delivery man walked in with a dozen gorgeous red roses, I have to say my heart skipped a beat, I was actually hoping it would have been from him. Ofcourse it was not, they were for my co-worker.
Now im in a crappy mood, and I ashamed of it. Being upset that he didnt think about me enough to send anything, knowing how crazy I was about this day. Wishing he would have actions back up his words. Oh well. I guess with all the hoping it's just never gonna happen. I just needed to vent I guess.
I hope of you have a happy rest of the day today. Cant wait for the pain to be gone for good. And I dont think about him or be disappointed when he doesnt do something I would expect him to do to prove how much he loved me.

Do any of you have that problem sometimes? Will it ever pass?

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Registered: 03-26-2003
Mon, 02-14-2005 - 1:56pm

Luvred,
If you are able, go and do something special for yourself today. I am broke and have no time, so what I'm doing for my kids is going to also be for me (making a special dinner and eating chocolate). If this has always been a special day for you, keep it that way, special for *you*.

Enjoy the rest of your day!

Melanie

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Mon, 02-14-2005 - 3:56pm

Thank you so much Melanie.
I guess you are right I do have to start doing things for myself and getting used to it. It might sound lame but I did buy myself a card that is from my little 2yr old. It says to mommy from your little guy. Its adorable. Looking at it this morning with him made me feel good.
It kinda sucks because all this time he has been asking for "time", "let's take things one day at a time to see what happens", "right now wouldnt be the right time for us" etc. All of that talk and then today all he does is call and leave a message say Happy Valentine's Day. Okay so I didnt answer the phone. I was afraid that my big mouth would ask him if he wanted to get together later. Oh Boy. I hate this.

Well, thanks again and I wish you all the best tonight and forever.