It's damagedxgoods.

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Registered: 05-13-2005
It's damagedxgoods.
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Fri, 05-13-2005 - 2:48am


Hi everyone. (I don't know if I'm remembered - my nickname was 'damagedxgoods' the 21 yr old going through the divorce?) Well today was the day.. and I survived. I felt high after I got finished - like the weight of the world has been lifted off my shoulders but as the day turns into night my hearts starting to ache again like theres a hole in the world. I went into this room today, saw Rick for the first time in four months and he looked the same and he looked so sad.. but it was a show. If he was sad this was happening then why the F would he not contact me at all? He's heartless. It's over now though, really over.. and I've failed to keep yet another relationship going in my life.

Do you know that - every SINGLE friend Ive ever had is no longer my friend for some stupid reason. Now the man I freakin' married gets to join that list. I didn't even talk to him today - didn't even look at him. His friend came with him for 'support' and said that Rick's just 'terrible' and all that crap. I hope he cries himself to sleep every night. I feel like a loser... and now I'm really alone.

I thought I was okay but I lied. Goodnight. Thanks for listening (and thank you to everyone who talked to me when I was damagedxgoods for your support and understanding!)

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Registered: 03-19-2003
Fri, 05-13-2005 - 10:16am

I hope that today beings new perspective and opportunity for you.


Karen ~ wildlucky4me ~