My 11th anniverary is Saturday

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Registered: 06-14-2004
My 11th anniverary is Saturday
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Thu, 08-25-2005 - 10:01pm

Hi,

I am in the process of divorce from my H...I moved out April 1st. I am officially going through a hard stage of mourning. I cry alot, sob actually. I don't regret leaving and don't have second thoughts, but I miss my friend SO SO SO much.

I am afraid of this Sat. I am going to spend the weekend at the oean and I hope the salt and sea heals my heart. But I know the depth of pain I feel now and I can't imagine what it will be like Saturday.

Please send positive vibes my way. I am terrified of the pain. I have never felt anything this excruciating in my life.

Hope you are all hanging in there.
xo
Loves

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Registered: 03-15-2004
Thu, 08-25-2005 - 11:17pm
Oh Sweetie -

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Registered: 06-14-2004
Fri, 08-26-2005 - 12:11am

{{{{rich}}}}

thanks rich.

man. when it rains it pours. I just found out tonight that my beloved daddy may have had a stroke. he is 74 and has had headaches for 3 weeks. they thought it was a tooth that needed to be pulled but when they pulled the tooth the headaches were still there. they admitted him tonight after a catscan came back with indications of a stroke.

please pray everyone. i cannot handle any more.

xxxx

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Registered: 03-11-2004
Fri, 08-26-2005 - 9:21am
Sending prayers and angels to you and your father. Hugs, Brenda

Hugs, Brenda 

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Registered: 07-08-2004
Sat, 08-27-2005 - 11:39am

You poor thing! I feel for you. I understand the pain you're in. I was together with my STBX for 12 years, married for almost 8. Excruciating is definitely a good word to describe the pain...even if you did want/need the divorce.

As for your father...my father had a stroke when he was 70, about 2 years ago. He is very well recovered now. I hope your father is OK.

You are in my thoughts and prayers....

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Registered: 07-23-2005
Sat, 08-27-2005 - 12:30pm
Hang in there, you will have a great time at the ocean and just think about yourself and not the marriage. Think about the future and how this will be a great time for you to discover what you will be doing for yourself from here on out. Become your own best friend and do for you. That was the hardest part for me, so stop thinking about him and the "could have beens." I no longer do and I will tell you a weight will be lifted off your shoulders when it happens. My 13 yr. anniversery is coming up next month and my divorce is not final yet. I am meeting with his attorney next week to work out a settlement and he has been living with another women for the past five months. I have had a lot to deal with but believe be, my attitude was just "bring it all on at once so I can face it,heal and move on. You are about to find out how strong you are and I know you will suprise yourself. Keep your head up and if you need a good book to read, try "The spiritual divorce' by Debbe Ford. I read it over and over again and it is a great inspirational read. Prayers to you...
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Registered: 08-27-2005
Sat, 08-27-2005 - 2:09pm

Last year, I celebrated my 8th anniversary by leaving the country to be as afar away from my STBX as possible. I never thought I could erase that day from memory. Then I realized that the memory of the wedding wasn't the problem... it was the memories from the years after that caused me all the pain. I spent that day on the beach, drinking margaritas and watching the ocean, trying to learn spanish and bargaining with vendors over silver jewelry. I didn't think about "IT" as much as I thought I would. I cried but mainly I enjoyed being ME.

This year, I have something else to celebrate on that day - my friend's son's first birthday. While I was in Mexico last year, my friend gave birth to a beautiful boy on my anniversary. And next year, I will celebrate a new anniversary - the anniversary of the divorce and the reclaiming of my own life. Choose the reasons to celebrate.

Jenny

"Don't count the days, make the days count."