Will I survive?

iVillage Member
Registered: 03-09-2005
Will I survive?
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Mon, 08-29-2005 - 3:54pm

The stress of all of this is taking its toll on me.

Deep down I know he is a jack @$$ and that I am better off without the abusing , lying lazy pig. but somehow i am feeling worthless.

I don't know how much I can take of the lonliness and pain. Maybe the pregnancy hormones are making it worse but some how I am in doubt as to my sanity

iVillage Member
Registered: 06-11-2004
Mon, 08-29-2005 - 4:51pm

Oh girl I know how you feel. I felt worthless for so long. The lonliness still drives me crazy sometimes. Especially knowing how easily my ex moved no TWICE. I felt like I was just so easily replaced and thought if he could do that so easily that I must not have been important. I was so wrong. I was looking for some form of validation of myself from him. I realized that I am actually better off than him. He's doing all these destructive things to put himself in a deeper hole than he's ever been in and Im keeping my head above water. He would say and do things to hurt me because I see now that he was miserable.

Honey, it just takes time. When people would tell me that I wanted to scream, it seemed like it was taking forever. I started reading and PRAYED, ALOT. I still do. PRAY, READ THE 37TH PSALM. It got me through some real rough nights. Im still healing and its been a year and a half. I still love him and I know a part of me always will. But I ve accepted that and its okay that I feel that. He gave me my son. But girl is he a big jerk (that's being nice, lol) Read, Pray and use this Website. That was and still is my recipe for getting through this storm in my life.

Hugs and kisses.

iVillage Member
Registered: 03-19-2003
Tue, 08-30-2005 - 4:18pm

Welcome to the board...... YES... you will make it.


Karen ~ wildlucky4me ~