Do you ever miss him so bad it hurts?
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| Mon, 03-20-2006 - 10:22am |
I don't know what is wrong with me. First of all, we've been separated for 18 months now, legally divorced for over a year- I was totally fine, didn't miss him much at all. In fact, I enjoyed being away from him. Now I find myself sitting around daydreaming about things we did, places we went, our old house, our old pets, things we would do with our daughter, everything. What makes it worse is that this was all MY decision, now he is happily moved on and getting married to this woman- he is so much happier not being with me. I am a complete wreck, and to just complete my wreckage I am 33 weeks pregnant (due May 7th), am single, and the father of my baby annoys the hell out of me and I don't want to be with him ever. My life is a mess, his is glorious. Now i'm going to be the single mother of two, with nobody. And I don't think it's just "this guy" that annoys me, I think any guy would. I can't stop comparing everyone to my ex, nobody even comes close to comparing to him. Why was I so miserable with him? Why did I want this divorce?? He & I had a great marriage and I don't know how I couldn't see that. Now i'm left with this crappy life and will never be happy with anyone again.
Sorry for the long rant, i'm just sitting here crying & upset- wondering if anyone else ever does this.
Lainie

Hugs, Brenda
Hugs, Brenda
Hi Lainie.... 33 weeks.... HORMONAL?????? :-)
Karen ~ wildlucky4me ~