Does the crying ever stop?
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| Sun, 04-16-2006 - 8:29pm |
Hi everyone..
I've been here since the beginning of March. May of you know my story that my STBX embezzled money from his employer. Besides the fact that he's sitting in jail, he is terminally ill (liver disease).
Anyway.. lately all I do is cry when I'm at home. I go into that ugly cry and can't stop. I cry because: I wish my life was the way I knew it. I love him and don't want a divorce however I don't see any other way. How can I trust a man that lied to me. After what he did to me I feel I deserve better (this is the head speaking no the heart).
Yesterday two of my friends came over and we packed all his personal belongings (boxes are in my garage). I walk into what was our closet and it seems so empty.
For those of you that went through a divorce while you still loved your STBX, did you have this hard of a time. I find Sundays the HARDEST day to get through.
Any encouragement?
Melissa

Hugs, Brenda
Thank you so much for your reply. It is comforting to know that it will get better because right now it's so hard to see that.
Thanks again for your reply.
Melissa
melissa - it does stop. in fact, you have taken a huge step in packing up your ex's stuff, i think that will take you a long way toward 'closure'.
i didn't love my second husband - it wasn't EASY for me to walk out on him, but i didn't love him. however ---- what DID help get thru things was some personal therapy. have you tried therapy? it may help you work thru all your emotions.
also, if you know that sundays are bad, then you might want to plan things, in advance - go away, make plans, ask your friends to help you out.
hugs.....