Mixed Emotions

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Registered: 04-19-2006
Mixed Emotions
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Sun, 05-13-2007 - 10:06pm

Since my stbx announced in January that he wanted a divorce (with not a warning that he was unhappy) and had fallen in love with someone from work, I've been on an emotional rollarcoaster - up, down and sometimes sideways or upside down.

But I am taking some great steps to build a life for my kids and myself. I am excited about it. A new place to live, potentially a new job, a school I know they'll love. I know it will be great. But at the same time I am so scared. I had this idea of what my life was going to be for the next few years and then the rug was yanked out from underneath me. Now, as I embark on a new dream, I can't help but be a little afraid.

This is normal, right? A year from now, I imagine a Mother's Day when I think to myself - Woman, you are awesome. Look how far you came this year.

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Registered: 03-19-2003
In reply to: yayafan
Mon, 05-14-2007 - 11:14pm
Yep!!!!

Karen ~ wildlucky4me ~

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Registered: 06-03-2003
In reply to: yayafan
Tue, 05-15-2007 - 4:30am
I could have written your post myself. I am in the EXACT same boat. Except I busted my stbxh cheating with a coworker in January before he was ready to drop the bomb. He moved right in with her and exposed the kids to her and her daughter (this pisses me off worse than anything). I, too, have exciting plans for the future that include a new career path and my dad just helped me buy a cute little cape cod in a GREAT school district - I have 2 little boys. I can tell you will be just fine by the tone of your post! Hang in there! It is a wild ride, sometimes I am great, others I am so wounded again - like you said...all over the place emotionally.