new here and new alone very alone
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new here and new alone very alone
| Mon, 05-14-2007 - 6:23am |
My husband has bi polar which is alot of our issues he has now gone and it seems for good. I love him despite all the issues because there is still love and we have a child who is hurting so much too. He has some wonderfuol traits but now is escapingn the meantime we are in distress he blew all the money we are being evicted I dont have the money to pay all this we have no where to go he will not contact me I know where he is and works and all but he will not contact me or our daughter. On top of all of this I am so stressed and depressed and full of anxiety I cant sleep or eat or think all I do is cry and feel sick. I dont have solutions and feel so very alone. I feel abandoned, rejected, dumped unloved. I wonder how to get thru another day....

Dubois,
I am so sorry that you are going through this.
Peace,
Di
***If you cannot define yourself, your circumstances will.***
Yesterday was very hard for me. All I wanted to do was die. That's not a joke. I prayed to God to take me out of this miserable life. But all along I kept thinking of my 2 beautiful children and what their life would be like if that actually happened. I really don't have anyone to talk to about what I'm feeling, at least not to the extent I need to. Tomorrow I'm going to call a counselor and hopefully find a support group. I need real help to get me through my days.
Please think of your daughter. Kids help us more than anyone will ever know. I know this because I'm still here another day because of them. They say it gets easier with time, I'm still waiting. After 7 months of being divorced, at least I stopped throwing up everyday because my stomach ached so bad I couldn't handle life. I guess that's an improvement. I'm still queasy all the time, but not throwing up lol. Boy, you'd think I'd loose a little weight!
Hang in there. Last night I got on this message board for the first time and it helped me. I think maybe this was the little bit of help I needed to get me through yesterday.
By the way, my Mother's Day was nice. My kids really tried to help me through a tough time. They are great. And I'm sure yours is too.
You'll be in my thoughts and prayers.