a new day

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Registered: 04-28-2007
a new day
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Tue, 05-15-2007 - 9:27am
I went to the hospital last night. The devastion and hurt I feel are making me do things that are very scary. My ex called the police and I was taken to the hospital. I had some ideas about using a firearm. Yeah, this isn't maybe the forum for this kind of infornation but I am sure there are many of you who feel desperate and hopeless like I do.
I heve children and i have good friends and there is a life out there somewhere that will be better. I am a good person and I cannot be brought down by guilt, regret and feelings of worthlessness.
Today I feel a bit embaraseed by what has happened. When there are 4-5 police cars outside your house and the flashing ambulance arrives it is a bit much.
This episode has made me a bit stronger today. I know it is over with my husband. I know he does not want me back in his life. I know he is already with someone else. I know I have to concentrate on making myself strong.
To all of you who are feeling overwhelmed I wish you all strenght and love.I give you all a big hug and hope you find peace and comfort.
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Registered: 06-06-2003
In reply to: sally882007
Tue, 05-15-2007 - 12:32pm

Sally,

Good thing you are okay. Hopefully you realized no one is more important than your life. Call and get into some counseling. There is nothing wrong with that. I went through 8 months of counseling and it helped me tremendously.

Terry

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Registered: 03-11-2004
In reply to: sally882007
Tue, 05-15-2007 - 1:24pm
Hugs to you Sally! I have been where you are. Take care of yourself. We will survive this. Hugs, Brenda

Hugs, Brenda 

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Registered: 11-06-2006
In reply to: sally882007
Tue, 05-15-2007 - 8:16pm
I know how you feel. I banged my head on a door until I pretty much passed out. Ex didn't do a thing. I wanted him to get off the phone with OW and hug me. Never happened. Went to the lawyers the next day and filed. The day after I woke up with 2 black eyes. (it took two nights to appear) I went to the walk in to make sure everything was intact. I was also embarrassed. Talk about a cry for help. You know I really didn't get it there. Anyways, everyday is a new day, some are good and some are bad but it can only get better. I find this board to be a great place to vent and get some great advice. Peace and comfort to you as well.
Brenda
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Registered: 03-19-2003
In reply to: sally882007
Wed, 05-16-2007 - 12:14am

HI there Sally... you've had quite a day, and I hope that things will feel better for you soon.


Karen ~ wildlucky4me ~

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Registered: 03-30-2007
In reply to: sally882007
Wed, 05-16-2007 - 6:50pm
There are better days ahead. And you have made the first step. Accepting that your marriage is over. Yes, it is hard. The end of a life style. But now you and your children can look forward to the future. Please keep it together, or else another woman will be raising your kids. We all have had our breaking points. I do hope you talk to someone about this. There is life after divorce.