Am I rushing things?
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| Tue, 05-20-2008 - 3:02am |
Well, it's 11:45 and all my friends are sleeping, with their husbands. Here I sit, alone, sad, and wondering how I got to this awful place. Someone wake me please! So, here's the question of the hour or the question that might take an hour to ask....AM I RUSHING THIS? My husband decided almost a year ago, that he wasnt happy with me. I had just had a baby, we have 2 older children 10 & 12, so I was really preoccupied with them and didnt see all the signs at first. He partied, I waited...sometimes all night. He stopped answering his phone in the evening...I waited. He stopped coming home or even calling...I waited. He ran off to a foreign country with a foreign exchange student for 3 weeks calling home only 4 brief times to check on his family..I waited. He moves out (I actually threw him out) to decide what he wants..I waited. He wont talk to me about what he wants or how he feels, he's too busy. He throws me a bone "I need to talk" or "lets talk about everything next week"...I am still waiting. So, this has all been going on for almost a year, he has been physically out of the house for 2 months...we have been together for 24 years, married 19, have 3 kids, and I'm 40. I'm thinking of filing divorce papers this week and I wonder if I'm rushing? I feel like all I do is wait for this man, and it's getting me nowhere. I ache so bad when I see him, his mean comments kill me, most days i can barely breathe..I cannot live like this anymore. Am I asking too much? All i wanted was some indication of where this is all headed. How long am I supposed to wait? Anyone, please tell me!!!
Thanks!
M
ps: I am not saying I did nothing wrong, I wasnt a very good housekeeper and I was terrible with finances, but I loved my husband more than anything else in the world...and I still do. This sucks!

Foley,
There comes a point when you have to stop
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