I don't even have the energy.....

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Registered: 03-30-2008
I don't even have the energy.....
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Thu, 06-12-2008 - 9:36pm
....to type out how awful this week has been dealing with AH. Sad, exhausting, hurtful, maddening, nasty, all of the above. Sigh. And I'm sure this isn't even the worst of it yet. Right now I think this is D is still in the spiraling out of control mode. Any sanity vibes are welcome. TIA!!
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Registered: 04-27-2008
Fri, 06-13-2008 - 11:56am

Consider yourself hit with SANITY !!! Hang in there, sounds like you are having a rough go...not easy for sure.

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Registered: 06-06-2008
Fri, 06-13-2008 - 12:01pm

Oh yeah, I can relate. This week cannot be described in words. Everytime I think I've I hit bottom I find I was on one of those trick floors that just open up and drop you further. I hate that I let my STBX influence my self respect and that he can still bait me after 7 months. I am too tired to box another of my famous boxes-too tired to clean up the house-too tired to eat-too tired to talk to anyone. Our divorce has been spiraling out of control since the day my STBX retained a lawyer who is crueler than he is. Sorry I can't help with sanity vibes-it's been forever since I've felt sane. I thought by not rushing things I would get stronger and be ready for the actual divorce decree but that is not happening because I am stuck in limbo. I can't make any simple decision.


So on a positive note-before this week things did look brighter so I know and I'm sure you do too that there is a better brighter place ahead. We are women hear us roar (ok whimper occasionally)

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Registered: 03-30-2008
Fri, 06-13-2008 - 8:16pm

Thanks ladies! It just never stops. It's been one incident after another this week. And it's over the children. I am 600 miles from family, have no one to help and I'm about ready to cut him off completely. It's just not worth it. And he won't commit to things (ANYTHING....e.g. arrangements for the children's care while I finish up work next week), gets ticked at me so he changes the plans, then won't make phone calls to let daycare/after-care know they've changed. It's just all soooo maddening.


And then has the nerve to tell me I'm condescending to him every time I talk/email with him. Arghhh, the madness just goes on and on and I see no end in sight. He's childish and irresponsible.


I'm going to have an email waiting for my attorney on Monday morning asking for advice on how to handle things. Because I cannot see us reaching ANY agreements on child custody/visitation or property division ourselves....so I just want to know what the alternate options are to get this moving....even if it costs more $$$. I just cannot handle much more.


And I hate weekends any more. I know that sounds bad...but it's just more of the same nothingness and loneliness. (Excuse my pity party)....welp, thanks for listening!

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Registered: 03-11-2008
Sat, 06-14-2008 - 8:16am

I know it's hard, but hang in there.

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Registered: 06-06-2008
Sat, 06-14-2008 - 8:58am

I'm with you about weekends! Throughout our 30 year marriage people at work would always say have a great weekend and then Mon. how was your weekend-What's

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Sat, 06-14-2008 - 11:02am