I can see how you would be distressed about getting a div, esp. so soon after you got married. Also, it is possible to have some love for someone even though he doesn't treat you well, because if he treats you nicely sometimes, you tend to focus on those times. But if he really didn't treat you well, then there's no point in staying w/ him. It's better for you to get div now, get your life back in order and hopefully you will meet someone else who will treat you nicely all the time. It might not seem like it to you, but 29 is still young and you will have plenty of time to meet someone else & have a family.
I learned two very important things from my divorce: