At the end of my rope...
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At the end of my rope...
| Fri, 09-26-2008 - 7:07pm |
Well, I was officially laid of today. Of course the jerks let me work half the day and then "let me go". In addition, I'm a salaried employee and I would've been paid $1200 on Wednesday, but I was given my last check today for $132-yes you read that right. So I essentially worked a full month, full-time, for $132. This place isn't some shady operation either! It's a charter school. I had heard rumors in the past that they could be shady about paying salaried when people are "let go" but I never in a million years expected that. So, I essentially have $132 for the month and no job. I didn't think I feel more low than when my husband left, but boy was I wrong! Now I have no husband AND no job! What next?! I've spent the better part of the day in tears. Then my STBX showed up to pick up DD to take her to one of the sporting events in which he's a coach. After he left I just felt numb. I am so baffled at how he could just cut me out of his life. After all the hurtful things that he has done, I still love him and I hate that. I want to move on like he did. I want to be happy like he is. I want to let go like he did. Instead, I'm the one holding on and can't let go. I feel like such a failure as a mother and human being. My life I had anticipated is completely gone. I went from being upper middle class in September to being an unemployed single mother just a month later. Now I'm just a step away from being on welfare If it can happen to me, it can happen to anyone. I know you're all going through your own hard times, but please pray for me and my daughter.

My stbx became a heartless monster that left me penniless in the end too.
So....