Sometimes you need to just BE
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| Tue, 10-03-2006 - 7:49pm |
I like all of you am a single mom. I know how it feels to want to have someone to hold and be a companion I feel that I have been neglecting my spiritual life. When I was in Hawaii I walked the beach in the mornings. Now back at work (which I dislike)I feel I have been just going on autopilot. It's time to step back and think about the woman that God meant me to be. I always feel calm and centered when I'm near water (nothing to do with astrology which I don't believe in). So tomorrow I'm playing hooky. I'm going to the beach, perhaps I'll pack a picnic lunch. I'll take a book and my writing pad. It's been so long since I've written (still have a book and screenplay to finish). I realize i'm everyone else's cheerleader (do any of you ever feel that way) but not my own. The advice I gave to another poster I plan on taking for myself. I recently convinced a friend to finally go to a hairstylist (she has never been.. in fact she hasn't brushed her hair in months). She has very curly hair. THe stylist conditioned her hair and then flat ironed it and it was straight. She looked beautiful. The stylist cut her front bangs which framed her face nicely and then put her hair in a layered flip. It turns out that she was going back east for her mom's retirement party and her ex-husband picked her up at the airport. He flipped when he saw her look (she also had lost some weight .. we've been running the track at night) and took her shopping. SHe told me it's been so long since a man has looked at her that she wasnt' prepared for all the stares she received.
So tomorrow I'm just going to BE. Instead of watching the water and nature.. I'm going to be a part of it. No phone calls, no cell, no "Mommy" (well atleast for a while), just me and the beach. Iwant to feel the sand between my toes. I want to hear the ocean speak to me. My soul needs this so much. Just wanted to share this with you all.

It is true that we all need to engage in an activity from time to time that makes us forget our troubles. Sounds like you are on the right track!!
Keep us posted - it is good to hear your update.