Update with EMT and silly poem
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Update with EMT and silly poem
| Mon, 09-08-2008 - 5:07pm |
I hope I didnt screw things up. Heres the update. We see Cirque on Wed. Have a good time. Talk, email and text many times a day and then go out to dinner on Sunday night. I pick a fantastic place on a hill top in the country with awesome food and views to die for. We eat outside at sunset. Perfect. So we spend the evening flirting on text message

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Now you know that I'm a geek from way back.
I guess I am still freaked from the RG incident that I fear it happening again. RG sucked me in with his looks and his charm and his flirting. Then when I jump on board he does a 180 and "oh btw I am only looking for a friend".
Laurie
He has made no reply reference the poem. I heard from him last night. He says he will come visit me tonight at work. But it just feels different today. He is not as jovial as he usually is. I have a sick sense that its RGish all over again. Why the hell do guys come on strong and flirty and then when you start to fall for them they back off?! Maybe its me. Maybe theyre enjoying the fun of it but shy away when it looks like it might be getting serious.
Laurie
"But it just feels different today. He is not as jovial as he usually is. I have a sick sense that its RGish all over again."
Could it be that it feels different because you threw it out there and are now a bit scared of his reaction?
Oh I am sure you are right. But its definitely different now. He had said he would visit tonight at work. Now he has a meeting to go to and cant visit. I screwed everything up again.
Laurie
I think you need to relax.
Thats cool insight. I know I am freaked by the RG stuff. Thats where the insecurities come from. I find myself letting it out too much. I need to slow down and realize that they are not all like RG.
Laurie
Cute poem! I have to agree with Ms. Savannah though- that maybe he is acting his usual- but you PERCEIVE him as backing off, because you sent that poem, you put a piece of your heart out there... and you're expecting some reaction to it. And if he doesn't respond in kind (his own poem to you) or some other excited response- it comes across as a rejection. I think your expectations of something big coming from sending that poem and expressing your feelings- is what is causing you to feel so down today- because he didn't respond with something just as big.
I don't think that is because he didn't like it, or he is backing off. Isn't he just acting normal today? Like nothing ever happened? That's actually a good thing (although it's REALLY hard to wrap your mind around that when it feels like he missed the mark)- but it's good that he is acting normal. Believe me- I run into it with Hiker at times, and it's a disappointment but yet it's not a bad thing. I think it can be a "man thing" in some ways- to just not get giddy about emotional stuff the way women do. But at the same time- he still cares, and the poem probably did make him smile and feel warm on the inside. I joke with Hiker that he never gets silly/giddy/goofy while I can be SOOO very goofy. He says he's "goofy on the inside"- and it does show. I see it at times- he's still just not a "silly" kind of person! But that doesn't mean he doesn't feel the silly just like I do.
Easier said than done, I know.... but relax and just let things happen as they happen! And stop reading into everything, or putting all your eggs into this or that reaction, expecting it to make or break anything. It's one HUGE thing I've had to learn as I've gotten older... to stop putting pressure on any man for demanding that a relationship be any certain way.
~shrimpy
"A man who wants something will find a way; a man who doesn't will find an excuse." ~Stephen Dolley Jr.
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