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| Thu, 11-13-2008 - 8:02pm |
ok, long story. a couple of weeks ago, i started working in a convenience store. the first day was with a bunch of girls, and i became good friends with them all. the next day, there was a young man there, the same age as me. he was handsome enough, but not strikingly so....i didnt really know what to make of him, so i pretty much ignored him. during a slow time, he sat down and asked me all sorts of detailed questions, all the while letting me know that i did not have to answer if i did not want to. by the end of the day, this charming young man with pretty blue eyes and a certain way about him that makes everyone comfortable, had earned a new admirer. i had a full-blown crush. however, all i was really interested in was a casual friends-with-benefits situation.
the next day, one of the girls was telling me how this young man was interested in her sister, and her sister was interested in him too. i saw her that evening, and i was immediately filled with despair. she was strikingly pretty, a petite little thing, and so charmingly girly.....whereas i am frank and practical, a mother with a three year old child.
and as this girl came to hang around the convenience store more and more, her sister and i started talking. apparently she liked this boy too, but had no chance with him....we were both rather annoyed with this young man's work ethic, as well.
the next time i worked, i found out that he and the younger sister had started dating.....growl. but i managed to act like i did not care. but last night, as he and i worked in close quarters, and talked, i found myself attracted despite all of my common sense. and as we both finally left, we hugged, and i held to him much longer than was proper. as he broke it off, not suddenly, but firmly, and walked away, he had a smile on his face and seemed rather amused, which hurt my feelings and my pride immensely.
today i have been thinking that perhaps i should speak to him outside of the workplace, come clean with him about this attraction i have for him, and let him tell me how he feels about this. i think that i should have a clear idea of what to expect from him, so i dont get my hopes up. however, he intimidates me badly, as i have a problem with self esteem, and i think he is awfully attractive, and so i am afraid to ask him to speak with me. basically,

i like him, not as a boyfriend, or a lover, or a friend, but as a human being, which in my mind encompasses all of these emotions. i am not fooling myself into thinking i love him, but i need to get myself over him, so i can move on to someone else. because as of now, i cant really picture myself with anyone else.
Im sorry - but you met this guy 2 weeks ago. He is a known flit with no work ethic. From what you say he's much younger & dating someone.
How do you even have any idea what kind of "human being" he is?