Eeek are those real feelings creeping in

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Eeek are those real feelings creeping in
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Wed, 12-10-2008 - 11:09am

So Mr. M popped in last night for a bit (umm Rebecca not that way, dang period this week...ugghh) and brought some papers to grade. We sat there and talked while I got some paperwork of my own filled out and then when we finished we retired to the hanky-panky suite and had a touch of a roll in the hay. We've mostly been cuddling and talking and guess what, I like him. You know more than friends with bennis feelings. Hes really funny very smart and really not just all about himself. Like i said in my other post i think i was so obsessed with having him make up for 6 years of damage from CP that i wasnt really giving him a chance. So heres the dilemma...i think i have feelings for him. Like the kind if it didnt work out I would honestly be hurt. Am i up for that? We wants to do more and talks about spending time with DD (which i have stood my ground as a big fat NO...shes not to be involved until im sure we have "potential"), he wants to take me to dinner (really cant afford a sitter right now), wants to got to the towns tree lighting...So now what?? What do you do with all the new feelings that youve tried to avoid having for so long???


M


Guess Im just a bit giddy and a bit scared...but

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Registered: 08-28-2008
Wed, 12-10-2008 - 1:02pm

Awww M!!!!!


This makes me happy to read. I can tell your getting all giddy. And why not? You deserve to have someone dote over you and want to take you places. That is sweet. I know... the sitter issue. Maybe your mom will help now and then?


Ahhhh....that scary, dark and unknown path that you just can't resist... something calling you forward because he could be a good guy for you. But the fears of the creatures in the night swallowing you up. And going out on the limb... trusting someone to NOT take your heart and tear it to pieces after you hand it to them.


But M, it's been a long time since you have been allowed to feel giddy and appreciated and to have true attraction for someone else. Its what makes life colorful, sure a bit risky..but colorful none the less.


I sense a completely different vibe when you talk about Mr M than when you talked about FP before. Could it be attraction....chemistry.....sparks??? Whoo Hooo!! M's got a true crush :o)


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Wed, 12-10-2008 - 1:19pm

Thanks Pac for that colorful description of my fears...LOL and yes I definately have a crush. You know i got butterflies when he pulled up last night and a huge rush when i got a quick good morning email from him...:0)


I feel good....da na na na...so goood...da na na


M

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Wed, 12-10-2008 - 1:25pm

OK, M. Now that CS has been officially upgraded to Mr. M I need a better visual of him then the one you painted for me last year. You know the one.


So spill it. I want the stats.... hair, eyes, height, bod, smile. Dish it out sister!

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Wed, 12-10-2008 - 1:31pm

I say go with it.

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Wed, 12-10-2008 - 2:02pm

Ok Pac...hes a highschool teacher (brains....love a smart one), hes a retired beach life guard (25 years as a guard and still surfs...think great muscle tone in his legs), he works out 5 - 6 days a week, hes a HUGE golfer (me not so great at putt-putt...LOL), great sense of humor and not afraid to act like a total dork (actually had me in stiches last night telling me how when he was younger he use to roll out of the top bunk all the time, this prompted me to ask politely if his mom put him to bed in a helmet...im giggling like a mental patient right now as i type), hes got dark brown eyes, about 5'8", maybe 170 lbs (im bad with weight since i always guess my own and im always wrong...LOL), dark brown curly hair (typical shaggy surfer shoulder length thick hair), built his own house (we wont get

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Wed, 12-10-2008 - 2:03pm
Thank you Moon...nice an sleazy...I mean easy...hormones....LOL
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Wed, 12-10-2008 - 2:17pm

Dang M he sounds simply scrumptious! Love the idea that he's a teacher and a surver/ex lifegaurd. I bet he's got a nice firm bod! And brown curly hair? Just enough to run your hands through, right?


Well about his "housekeeping". I'd just chalk that up to his being a bachelor. Without a woman to impress for so long. May be now that you'll be visiting more often he'll pick the undies off the floor lol.


And he used to be YOUR TEACHER? Now THERE's some DIRT ;o) I love it! I'm thinking of that spng by that Police" Don't Stand so Close to Me"


Young teacher, the subject
Of schoolgirl fantasy
She wants him so badly
Knows what she wants to be
Inside her there's longing
This girl's an open page
Book marking - she's so close now


Sometimes it's not so easy
To be the teacher's pet


Strong words in the staffroom
The accusations fly
It's no use, he sees her
He starts to shake and cough


HeHe....

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Wed, 12-10-2008 - 2:25pm

OMG Pac thats been "our" song since highschool...LOL He was the coach of the surfteam in HS and i was the (ummm token board carrier for all out meets...i was supposed to keep track of all the heats but i could never because my girlfriend and i were always to busy flirting with all the surfers and him...LOL) I used to sing that to him and i heard it in the car a few weeks ago and said to him you know what song i heard the other day and he said it right away...


Ohh Smiles from ear to ear today...thanks for the reminder


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Wed, 12-10-2008 - 4:43pm

Well, I think he sounds great!


As far as your daughter goes- of course you know her personality- but with my kids at that age I didn't have to worry about them getting attached much at all.

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Thu, 12-11-2008 - 11:29am

Ummmm... my jaw is down to my knees - HE WAS YOUR H.S TEACHER????


You VIXEN!!!!!!!!!!!

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