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|Thu, 09-23-2010 - 11:06pm|
...still feel overwhelming anxiety and fear? I just can't shake it! I'm still afraid to sleep because I'm afraid that something could happen while I'm sleeping. I check on Noah at least every 15 minutes when he's sleeping. I can't leave his side...
Today he was in my arms and he started breathing funny. I was seconds away from calling 911, sure that he was dying, having a heart attack or something... then he threw up... he was just having some tummy issues :(
I sit here at night holding him and I just want to cry... I'm terrified of losing him! I still live from one appointment to the next. I have no reason to believe that he's at risk, he's gaining weight and developing well albeit maybe a couple of weeks behind) and his cardiologist is happy with his progress so far. It's just me. I'm a nervous wreck and I just want to be able to enjoy him!
Anyone else feel this way?