hospitalization *triggers*
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hospitalization *triggers*
| Fri, 10-29-2004 - 6:23pm |
Hi, everyone. I've only posted here once before, so I'm still just lurking around a little. Today I took my first step towards going back to therapy. Ever since I was diagnosed last year, I fled from everything; the doctors, the medications, the whole mess. Recently, I've been going through what I think is called a "mixed" episode. I've been intensely irritated, restless, and then I get so depressed, and I think about suicide most of the time. I haven't slept more than three hours a night for the last two weeks. I finally decided to call the place I used to go to, and they asked me if I was thinking of killing myself, and I said that I was. They scheduled an appointment for me to come in, but it's three weeks from now! I don't understand. I feel like I can't do this anymore, I'm just so exhausted that I can't even cry anymore.
Has anyone here ever been hospitalized? I only went to the hospital once, and it was because I self-injured badly and needed stitches, and they never had a psychiatrist speak with me, even though I had a history. Sometimes I don't understand the system. But I'm afraid to have my next panic attack, and what will happen if I decide to go to the hospital and tell them what I'm thinking. I don't know what they do to people like that, and I'm too scared to see for myself, even when I know I need their help. I just can't wait that long to see someone, but what can you do about it?

I have been hospitalized, once, a long time ago when I was feeling suicidal and out of control. I honestly believe that if I had not put myself into the hospital, I would not be here today. It was a very calm and relaxing environment. Many people on this board have gone into the hospital on an inpatient basis.
If you are depressed and spending a lot of time thinking about suicide, and don't know if you are safe any more, you SHOULD go. I look at it as could it BE worse then what you are feeling now?? Really, what is the WORST thing that could happen?
Please, if you aren't safe, call a help line or go into a crisis center. Your life is too valuable to risk it.
Post here as much as you need to...we're all here for you!!
Tracey
Sweetie,
Hope everyone is doing well.
-Lauren
I feel bad for you because of the answer you were given.
Christine
CL
Love,
Keli
Love to all.
-Lauren