Feeling insecure

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Registered: 10-02-2003
Feeling insecure
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Sun, 11-07-2004 - 10:17pm
I keep getting this insecure feeling. I feel unsafe and yet I know I am ok. I have been shaky and full of anxiety. I have been feeling so bad but I thought I was feeling better. I guess in away I am feeling better. It is hard to explain. I spent the weekend at my bf's and he slept alot which made me even more depressed and I tried staying up late to watch movies and it made me feel worse. I liked the movies but my sleep is already weird. My bf was sweet and took me and bought me a new CD and a DVD I wanted and he also bought me new tennis shoes I needed. Our anniversary when we first met was today, Sunday. We have been together now for 3 years..it seems longer...maybe because of all the ups and downs we have been through. It made me feel better him doing those nice things for me but yet I still have this negativity pulling me down. I hate this. I am trying to give this med adjustment time and being patient but it is hard. I did get some rest this weekend which I think did help. I should give my med adjustment another week or so to see if it is helping. I move up to 200 mg of Lamictal tomorrow. I was at 150mg and then went to 175 and now will go to 200mg. I just took an ativan and my Risperdal so hopefully soon I will start to calm down and be able to go to sleep. I wish this insecure feeling would go away. Where does that crap come from when you have no reason to feel this way?

Hope everyone is well:)

Tina~

 
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Registered: 03-25-2003
Mon, 11-08-2004 - 9:49am
Hey Tina...the feeling is coming from DEPRESSION, girl...try to hang in there another week and see if the Lamictal increase is going to help...but if it doesn't...you know what I'm going to say here...CALL YOUR PDOC BACK AGAIN! You don't deserve to feel so bad...I didn't either, but didn't know it, because I was so depressed!!! LOL...

How are you feeling today? I'm at work, so email me here...

k.