Very frustrated!!! (long/triggers)

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Registered: 10-04-2004
Very frustrated!!! (long/triggers)
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Mon, 11-08-2004 - 6:10pm

Hi everyone - haven't been around the board lately because - well, I guess because my disease didn't want me to be around - if that makes any sense. Sorry this is so long - I just need to get it all of my chest. And I'm hypomanic!


I'm SO frustrated! I've had recurrent depression with associated anxiety and/or activating side effects from the medsfor most of my adult life, and each episode got harder and harder to treat effectively, so now I am on a huge cocktail of meds: for depression - Celexa, Welbutrin, Remeron (great for sleep too!); for anxiety/activation from antidepressants - Klonopin, Buspar, Neurontin (the second two added in an attempt to get off of Klonopin, which has been unsuccessful

peace and love,

just_a_big_kid

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Registered: 03-25-2003
Tue, 11-09-2004 - 1:09pm
Hey Sue...sorry it took so long to respond to your post! I hope you're feeling a bit less hyper now. As for your question regarding antidepressants and cycling, here's what I know from my own experience. ANY anti depressant (except the new one I'm on now, Cymbalta) makes me rapid cycle LIKE CRAZY!!!!! And it makes my anxiety a MILLION times worse. I am Bipolar I, and prone to extreme manias and extreme depressions when I cycle. I know how frustrated you must be, because I was too. I was on soooo many MAJOR mood stabilizers, at such high doses and having adverse reactions to them all...AAAAGHH! But, now I'm only on ONE stabilizer, at a fairly medium dose and ONE anti depressant and ONE anti anxiety med. You're on a LOT of anti depressants and if you're still having that much depression, you REALLY need to talk to your doctor about changing something. Something is right with your meds.

I'm soooo sorry you had a bad weekend with the anniversary of your partner's death. That had to be hard for you sweetie. I wish I could have made it better for you.

Keep us posted on how you're doing and what happens at your appointment, okay?

Hugs,

Keli

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Registered: 09-01-2004
Tue, 11-09-2004 - 1:33pm

Sue,


I can so relate to you--my biggest problem is the depression, interspersed by occasional mania (sometimes the nice, I can actually get things done type, but usually moving into the jittery, I can't stop dancing mania in the blink of an eye).