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really needing guidance----
| Wed, 11-10-2004 - 11:59am |
i have been taking serequel and just moved up to 100mg (2) times a day. And I have noticed that I am angry all the time, easily irritated and don't want to be bothered, I also don't want to be touched. I have 2 children at home and can't afford for them to run amuck through the house. They need my attention but I don't want to give it to them? Should I call the dr? Should I just let the med do its thing? Maybe messing with the chemicals in my head? I don't know any suggestions would be greatly appreciated.....

Hugs,
Keli
Good luck and please post here and much as you need to!!!!
Tracey
Tina~
Thanks for all your great input and hope time takes a toll on me :)
AMY
I know this is hard sweety. I understand completely. My rages were so bad that I literally found myself teaching my daughter a code word that I would give her when I started to think I was going into a rage (in case she didn't notice I was losing it). The code word was my way of keeping her safe. When I used the word, it was her signal to go to her room and stay there until I came back to myself. I don't know if your kids are old enough to use a system like that. However, when we were doing that, I wasn't medicated and when I finally started to take my meds as I was suppose to again, it wasn't long before the rages subsided. Don't get me wrong, there are STILL times when I get rages, but I come from a family of hot-heads with bad tempers.
All I can say is to take things day by day, hour by hour. Keep a diary of your moods, see if you can identify ANYTHING that could be a clue to you that a rage is coming and find ways to either sequester yourself until the rage passes or find tricks to break the rage. ANY time you are feeling like you need to vent, please come to the board and scream and yell to us. A LOT of us have been there :).
{{HUGS}}
Tracey
Things will get better because you notice there is a problem and you want to work on it. The first thing is do NOT tell yourself you have no control over your behavior. Yes it is hard and we can get out of hand but we do have choices and that is what helped me...knowing I had choices. I could walk out away from people I would harm. Is there someone close to you thatv you trust who you could call incase you start to feel angry...not rage...don't let it get to rage. Call them to come over with your kids or come and picked them up for an hour or so. I don't know how old your kids are but you know your life and friends and family better then wew do and you need to make a plan. Call a crisis hotline while you are angry and get them to talk to you and get you through those times. Do you have a therapist(tdoc)? A professional who can help you with a plan and other coping skills? Another thing that helped me was when I was angry to immediately sit down and keep writing what I am angry about in privacy or if you need to with your kids around. Yell in your letter to yourself. I was also taught the usual thing people are told...that is to hit a pillow to help get the anger out. As you see you do have choices and I do relate to the anger and rages and you do need meds to help you calm down and for you to be able to handle putting these choices into action. So please if you do not feel better in a day or two CALL YOUR PDOC!!! The Seroquel sadation affects people differently. I am very sensitive to Seroquel and can't even take 25mgs at night for sleep, but I have heard alot of people say it takes about 2-3 weeks to get used to it. If you feel the Seroquel isn't helping with the anger tell your pdoc you want to try something else. Seoquel is supposed to be good for that but not everyone can take Seroquel and there are other meds that will help also. Hang in there and be patient with yourself and the people around you. Let us all know how you are we are concerned about you.
Tina~
A GREAT BIG HUG
LOVE
AMY