really needing guidance----

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Wed, 11-10-2004 - 11:59am
i have been taking serequel and just moved up to 100mg (2) times a day. And I have noticed that I am angry all the time, easily irritated and don't want to be bothered, I also don't want to be touched. I have 2 children at home and can't afford for them to run amuck through the house. They need my attention but I don't want to give it to them? Should I call the dr? Should I just let the med do its thing? Maybe messing with the chemicals in my head? I don't know any suggestions would be greatly appreciated.....
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Wed, 11-10-2004 - 12:04pm
Hey there...you need to call your doctor and let him/her know what's going on. Especially with 2 little ones in the house. Keep us posted.

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Keli

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Registered: 07-24-2003
Wed, 11-10-2004 - 1:05pm
I agree with Keli. You need to contact your dr and let them know what is happening. Possibly this is just your body adjusting to the seroquel. I don't know. I personally get "rages" all the time and always have. It's something that I know about myself and have learned to deal with and to control fairly well. If this is something new to you, you need to make sure to get help with it right away - you don't want to wait until they get out of hand and you get carried away by one. I have broken dishes, furniture, screamed and sworn at my child, and once came very close to harming my child before I stopped myself. PLEASE call your dr. This may just be something that will pass in a day or two, or you may need to look at other options - but that is a conversation you need to have with your dr.

Good luck and please post here and much as you need to!!!!

Tracey

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Registered: 10-02-2003
Wed, 11-10-2004 - 7:26pm
When did your Seroquel get increased? If it was just recently then it will take a few days for it to get into your system and work better. I would call your pdoc though right away about your feelings of rage and anger. You have 2 children around that you don't want to see you like that. I know it happens that our children see alot with us because of our illness but please let your pdoc know how you are feeling. I know I have issues myself with anger and rage. I break things when I get into a rage and yell and act not appropriate and then I feel guilty and terrible about myself afterwards. I ususally have a tendency to go into rages when I am hypomanic. I have done pretty well so far keeping myself under control but I do know it is an issue with me and I need to be on guard. Having children can be irritating when you are going through this because they intensify the anger even though you know they don't mean to. I know you love your children and your a great mom or else you wouldn't be here asking for advice because you have 2 children. I am glad you reached out to us. Please let us all know how you are doing and what your pdoc says. This can be a scary time so please post as often as you need too ....OK

Tina~

 
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Wed, 11-10-2004 - 8:38pm
my dose was just increased today and he said just to take 100 at night, and yes I get those rage of anger too, I just notice the damage when it is done and said and that is what I am afraid of, is the damage I do to my children. Do you think that it will go away????My pdoc said lets see what happens in a few days and if it gets worse then I have to call him, but the groggy feeling does that subside? How did ya'll deal with the anger rages? It is so hard for me to control them, hitting walls and throwing stuff, I curse at my children and everything just as ya'll mentioned? Is it going to get better? I hope so, please keep me in your prayers because this aint me at all!!!!!!!! I use to be patient and understanding with my kids but all I want to do is yell... :(

Thanks for all your great input and hope time takes a toll on me :)

AMY

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Wed, 11-10-2004 - 10:44pm
Amy:

I know this is hard sweety. I understand completely. My rages were so bad that I literally found myself teaching my daughter a code word that I would give her when I started to think I was going into a rage (in case she didn't notice I was losing it). The code word was my way of keeping her safe. When I used the word, it was her signal to go to her room and stay there until I came back to myself. I don't know if your kids are old enough to use a system like that. However, when we were doing that, I wasn't medicated and when I finally started to take my meds as I was suppose to again, it wasn't long before the rages subsided. Don't get me wrong, there are STILL times when I get rages, but I come from a family of hot-heads with bad tempers.

All I can say is to take things day by day, hour by hour. Keep a diary of your moods, see if you can identify ANYTHING that could be a clue to you that a rage is coming and find ways to either sequester yourself until the rage passes or find tricks to break the rage. ANY time you are feeling like you need to vent, please come to the board and scream and yell to us. A LOT of us have been there :).

{{HUGS}}

Tracey

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Thu, 11-11-2004 - 8:14am
Amy--The rage does get better once the meds kick in. I'm the same way when my meds aren't right. My kids are 3 and 8 so I know what you mean about it being frightening. My daughter is old enough to get out of my way. She knows when not to "mess" with me. My son is another story. It's difficult but, you will do fine after a while. It won't permanently scar your children as long as you get it under control. My daughter now tells me how much nicer I am and my son doesn't remember all the anger. They've always been very vocal about loving me and very affectionate which is a great reminder that I've done no permanent damage. On to another topic, can I ask what part of Texas you are in? I'm in the Houston/Galveston area. Amanda
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Thu, 11-11-2004 - 9:19am
Hi Amy,

Things will get better because you notice there is a problem and you want to work on it. The first thing is do NOT tell yourself you have no control over your behavior. Yes it is hard and we can get out of hand but we do have choices and that is what helped me...knowing I had choices. I could walk out away from people I would harm. Is there someone close to you thatv you trust who you could call incase you start to feel angry...not rage...don't let it get to rage. Call them to come over with your kids or come and picked them up for an hour or so. I don't know how old your kids are but you know your life and friends and family better then wew do and you need to make a plan. Call a crisis hotline while you are angry and get them to talk to you and get you through those times. Do you have a therapist(tdoc)? A professional who can help you with a plan and other coping skills? Another thing that helped me was when I was angry to immediately sit down and keep writing what I am angry about in privacy or if you need to with your kids around. Yell in your letter to yourself. I was also taught the usual thing people are told...that is to hit a pillow to help get the anger out. As you see you do have choices and I do relate to the anger and rages and you do need meds to help you calm down and for you to be able to handle putting these choices into action. So please if you do not feel better in a day or two CALL YOUR PDOC!!! The Seroquel sadation affects people differently. I am very sensitive to Seroquel and can't even take 25mgs at night for sleep, but I have heard alot of people say it takes about 2-3 weeks to get used to it. If you feel the Seroquel isn't helping with the anger tell your pdoc you want to try something else. Seoquel is supposed to be good for that but not everyone can take Seroquel and there are other meds that will help also. Hang in there and be patient with yourself and the people around you. Let us all know how you are we are concerned about you.

Tina~

 
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Thu, 11-11-2004 - 9:24pm
i am in corpus christi
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Thu, 11-11-2004 - 9:35pm
ya'll are great, I can't thank all of you enough for the wise words ya'll have used, I haven't heard of writing a letter and yelling at yourself. I had a great day today, no anger rages I was happy all day, spent time with my kids and played outside and let them ride their bikes ( which is rare, we usually sit in the house) I work on a prn basis (whenever needed) so I got to work today also. So that kept my mind busy. The seroquel I have been taking 100 at night, it makes me sleep like a baby, and I notice a smile on my face just sitting here. It doesn't help that my husband is having a bad day. My children are 4 and will be 2 (dec 12) I hope tomorrow will be a better day. I am from the corpus christi area, I have inlaws in the houston area. I have seen a therapist counselor in the past, maybe I can make an appt with her tomorrow.....Then that will give me someone to vent too. I love going but had to stop because of family problems (out of state) So I will give them a call tomorrow. Sorry for rambling on and on and on . Just letting you guys get to know me a little better since you have listen to me complain. :) Well thank you sooooooooooo much for listen and sharing your thoughts, I will let you know what the counselor says :) you can also email anytime also at amydahlstrom@yahoo.com I have the messenger too.

A GREAT BIG HUG

LOVE

AMY